You Can’t Win

I think we need a little break. Everyone is so upset and I feel a little responsible. So how about a nice sing along… it’s been a while since we had a good one. This one is my favorite song from The Wiz, “The Crow Anthem”. So hit play on the Michael Jackson video, the lyrics are down below. Hear it, sing it, feel it! Because, “you can’t win, you can’t break even, and you can’t get out of the game…”

[Verse 1]
You can’t win, you can’t break even
And you can’t get out of the game
People keep saying things are going to change
But they look just like they’re staying the same
You can’t win, get over your head
And you only have yourself to blame

[Chorus: Michael Jackson (The Crows)]
You can’t win, chile (You can’t win chile)
You can’t break even
And you can’t get out of the game

[Verse 2: Michael Jackson (The Crows)]
You can’t win, the world keeps moving
And you’re standing far behind
People keep saying, things will get better
(Just to ease your state of mind)
(So you lean back)(And you smoke that smoke)
(And you drink your glass of wine)

[Chorus]
Sayin’ you can’t win, chile
You can’t break even
And you can’t get out of the game

[Bridge: Michael Jackson (The Crows)]
You can’t win, you can’t win no way
If your story stays the same
(You ain’t winning) No, no
(But it’s nice to see you, I’m awfully glad you came)
(Better cool it, cause it ain’t about losin’)
Then the world has got no shame

[Chorus]
You can’t win, chile
You can’t break even
And you can’t get out of the game

[Verse 3: Michael Jackson (The Crows)]
You can’t win, you can’t break even
Ain’t the way it’s supposed to be
(You’ll be spending) No, no, oh
(Your little bit of money)
While someone else rides for free
(Learn your lesson) Ooo
(Refuel your mind before some turkey blows out your flame)

[Outro: Michael Jackson (The Crows)]
You can’t win, chile
(No, you can’t win) [4x]

You can’t win, chile
You can’t break even
And you can’t get out of the game
You can’t get out of the game
You can’t get out, woo, of the game, no, no

Encore

I’ve become so numb. But you know me, I always end up pulling it together. So let’s pull it together, together.

Can I get an encore, do you want more? I hope so, ’cause I’m ready to go one more round.

On December 27th 2013 I posted an Eminem video (The Monster) and Zero’s World was born. Eminem not only became the first thing posted each new year of the blog, but Eminem became the theme music to which I wrote most of the posts and hopefully the soundtrack to which you read the blog. Some people still don’t get why Eminem. I’ve explained this before and probably will again, like all things dealing with this place, it’s complicated. The important part is we have made it to year 4 and Eminem is here for us. I chose a hybrid track to put this last year into motion and it fits, since this blog is a bit of a hybrid blog. Mixing it all up.

I know along the way many of you thought I was shady. And with some of you the feeling was mutual. But as a close friend of mine would say, “You got me fucked up!”. I’m not really all that shady, in fact I’m as sunny as that California state I go on and on about. Ok maybe not that sunny, but definitely as bright no matter how dark you may find me. (Is anyone enjoying this wordplay?) Hopefully this final year of posts will show this in a better light. And some of you might start, seeing me less as the shady one and more of the Doc type. I’m not talking about Hackett either. I mean Doc like as in the one in charge or the guy who will put you on the couch (‘Member? Yea, I ‘member).

So, with all that being said (wordplay and all), Get your ass up for the doctor
One more time, get your ass up for the doctor, Come on now, here we go, cliff hanger, it’s another club banger. Got you hangin’ on the edge of your seat.

Yep, here we go again. I’m gonna do what I do best. Get under the skin of the trolls and the righteous. Make you all think twice before you decide to fuck with another human being. I know, that’s a lot to ask for, but I’m gonna do my best to get us all there. I know there will continue to be naysayers and haters, but you had your chance. Times up, games over, you lose, I win ’bout to show these knuckleheads how to do this here. Yep, just call me turnip, because I’m ’bout to turn it up!  Sorry, that was bad.  You get me though, we are ready to actually go somewhere.

Ooh yeah, new year, next phase, begin, Look who’s got you goin’ crazy again. I do bring out the crazy in people, don’t I? Just look what I have done to our little loud mouth Fluke. He’s almost pathetic to look at now. Minus the almost. LOL, did I do that? Did I help make you irrelevant? Give it up Junior, I’m a trend, I set one every time I’m in, I go out and just come back full circle again. You a fad, that means your something that we already had. But once you’re gone, you don’t come back, too bad. Ha, ha!
That goes for all the loud mouth nuts. Dorothy, MM7, Jen, and all the others I haven’t really gotten to… yet. You’re off the map now, radar can’t even find you. We stay on the grind, you slip, we out-grind you. You walk around mad, you let your anger blind you. We walk around just playin’ the violin behind you. 
I love that line because it’s funny but also very true. While so many of you were bitching about me and my blogs and the good apples who found something here, we have been playing that mocking violin, exposing your blind anger and madness. It’s been quite a journey so far. This can’t go on forever though. Like I said, you had your chance, now enough with all the pissin’ and moanin’, whinin’ and bitchin’. Sit and observe, listen, you’ll learn if you pay attention.

Now can I get an encore, do you want more? I hope so, because I can’t do it without you. So for one last time I need y’all to roar!  I know I can count on a few of you to give this place a proper send off and finally get to the point. I bet some of you are saying, well get going, Now what the hell are you waitin for?  I hear ya, but we got to do this right. Because after me, there shall be no more.  Ok, that might be taking the whole narcissistic, arrogance a step to far, but I bet there won’t be anyone quite like me. So for one last time, nigga make some noise (that one’s for you Dorothy). But really, everyone, it’s time to speak up or shut up. So all my people on the left, all my people on the right, scream one last time. 

Funny, that right when I decided this blog had outlived its purpose it started getting attention again. Nerd and PS149 have returned (and yes, that is the “real” PS149), links to the blog are popping up in different places, some certain Websleuthers are dropping my name (by the way, comments like “Go ask your friend zero” do not go unnoticed, I have eyes everywhere! LMAO). It’s getting crazy out there again, the buzz is tremendous, we drop you all to sense it. I don’t gotta promote it for you to know that doc is off the benches. And I seem to have put together a pretty good team of my own. Well better than Dorothy’s crazy team anyways.  Just call us doody, ’cause we da shit. Or as Linda once so awesomely put it, “we are dope, you’re just dopes”.  You see, we keep the party rockin’ off the henges.
We ain’t showin’ off, we just goin’ off popular consensus.

Still my critics say that Doc is soft, Doc is talk, Doc is all washed up. To which I reply: Knock it off Who the fuck is Doc impressin’?
Doc is this, Doc is that, you got the wrong impression. You must be on the cock of Doc, cause Doc left you all guessin’.  No more guessing. It’s time for everyone to stop guessing. It’s time for everyone to just say what ya know. But know what ya say, because I’m here… no we are here (remember when I used to criticize everyone for saying “we” all the time, when they just meant “me”, then I started using “we” in jest, then I realized there really was a bad “we” out there, and now there is actually a good “we”.

So DJ take the needle and just drop it on the record (what)

We gon’ have this motherfucker hoppin’ in a second (bump bump)

That’s why we always save the best cut last, to make you scratch and itch for it like fresh cut grass.

You can try to deny it but I know you all are jonesing for me, for us, for this. So here it is, back one last time to satisfy your addiction. It’s time the war was won once and for all. By the way Dorothy (and I know you are hanging on every word) you can declare “war” on Zero’s World, it won’t change the facts that we already won most of the battles.  Cause we done swam with the sharks, wrestle with alligators. We took on Flukyou’s slander, Cristin’s lies, Dorothy’s delusions, Nancy’s insanity, McKee’s misdirection, Jen’s cryptic course, Son of Man’s crazy conspiracies, a hand full of self-important Websleuthers, a ton of sock puppets, as well as racist and bigots from all over Facebook and Twitter. And we won each time. No one wanted any of this, lol. In fact I bet a bunch of you are still worried about what you say out there. Posting then deleting, afraid it’s gonna show up in a post. And it probably will.
Some of you out there don’t want to admit it, but I think you are kind of a scared of this place. You see what can be done here. We go toe to toe, tit for tat, and we can play the back and forth all day. We can outwit, outplay, outlast!(speaking of which, did anyone else watch last season of Survivor? It was a good one) Point is, we took it all on and we are still standing. Most would probably agree, much, much wiser.
When I finally write that last post a year from now, I hope I have made some more new friends, I know I will have a few new enemies. Hopefully most will see through it all and realize some things are not so simple, some things aren’t always what they seem. But I know for some of you that’s just not possible. No matter what I say or do, no matter what is shown to you, you are gonna always see me as the “bad guy”. Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow) And every second I waste is more than I can take…

Everybody sing along with me:
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
I’ve become so tired so much more aware
I’m becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Man, how that rings true to me. I’ve been accused of many things since I first came across (and started blogging about) LISK.com and Catching LISK, but the ones  that say I’m no better than Fluke or Dorothy or that my blog is as bad as MM7’s blog, those hit too close to the mark. To think I might have become as bad as those I spoke out against, well, that’s something I can’t let happen. Yes, it may just be an elaborate way to show how we all get sucked in. How the bullied become the bully, the sane become crazy. How the internet can twist us all. Yes it may have gotten a little out of control at times… But I can’t become this.

So let’s pull it all together… together.

Here we go… Hands up for the grand finale! And keep them raised, this is gonna be another roller coaster of a ride.

Now can I get an encore, do you want more?

So for one last time I need y’all to roar!

One last time I need y’all to roar…

 

Any Last Words? Part 2

It’s been a while since we all heard about Mari’s death and I said there would be a week of silence on the blog. Much more than a week has passed by, in fact a whole season has gone. Summer became Fall and Fall is half way through.

I recently wrote on here,  “the longer I stay away from the blog, the easier it is not to return”, and that keeps getting truer and truer. I like writing here and interacting with all the different readers (well most of you) but just letting go of all the madness that circles this blog and enjoying life these last few months has started me thinking towards ending the blog all together. I’m sure this won’t come to much surprise, I mean did anyone really expect it to go on longer than 3 years?

The problem is, even when the blog is quiet the nut gallery keeps on yapping. Dorothy declared war on the blog a few weeks back, I have to admit that brought a smile to my face. Some of you might have seen Fluke returned to let me know the blog sucks, thank you Fluke, coming from you that means a lot. I noticed some of the exiles like Susie S., Candyce B., and Crictin K. came out of hiding to say a few words about Mari, I don’t have anything to say about that, that was totally expected. In fact I expected many of the exiles to resurface and have things to say now that Mari is gone. I expected it, was worried about it, and saw it happen. I was a little surprised to see how many quickly turned on Mari, but I knew that would come too. Even her attorney who used to say how strong of a woman Mari was, and what a great mother she was, quickly changed his tune, accusing Mari of child neglect and mental illness. Comments flying around about Mari being into witchcraft and arguments on the difference of black and white magic…. more of the crap the LISK case does not need.

A few have come to me asking my feelings on John Ray and I was not kind with my words. More than ever the guy seems like a snake to me. But I have had more time to think about it, and maybe he is just trying to help the Gilbert family in any way he can now. Maybe he is just trying to do right by Mari and Shannan by saving Sarra. I don’t know, and it’s really not for me to pass judgment. The Gilbert’s have had too much tragedy in their lives, I’ve said that many times before, and I don’t want to be part of any hurtful words towards them. I think most of my readers understand that and know of my careful skirting around when it comes to the Gilberts. That hasn’t changed with Mari’s death, in fact it’s only made it harder. I don’t want to be writing about any of this, but the time has come to stop putting a new post off or just stop posting. And I’m just not quite at the latter yet.

Still I will not judge or question any of the Gilberts and I know that puzzles some of my readers. Yes, many of us have questioned about mental states of the family and if this played into them connecting to others with questionable mental state. We have all long ago seen that connection in the interactions between the Gilberts and those like Dorothy, Joey, Jen, Candyce, Cristin, and the list goes on and on. Questions of bi-polar and schizophrenia as well as other mental illness surrounds them all. But these are things long ago known, and I don’t see the purpose to pounce on it all now. I still strongly feel hurt and sorrow for the Gilberts, they have suffered a lifetime of tragedy and therefore I can understand (in some way) the reasons they go about things or the mental instability that comes with such tragedies. I just wish it didn’t affect the Gilgo Beach case the way it has and does. But I don’t lay that blame on the Gilberts. That goes right down the line bouncing back and forth between the Jens and Cristins and ends right at the top of crazy with Flukeyou and Dorothy.

Can you tell I’m struggling with this post? I’m this close to deleting all that I’ve written so far…

Look, I agree that things like the Shannan Facebook memorial and Mari’s blog have let questionable people get involved with lies and misdirection. I think some of those who joined Mari on the vigils and marches on Oak Beach have done great damage to the case and hurt the lives of innocent people. Yes, it’s a mess but I don’t see how blaming the Gilberts or shinning spotlights on their tragic home life will help solve the LISK case nor stop all the nuts who pushed their ways into it all.

I’d like to think Mari is with Shannan and all that tragedy and heart ache between them has dissolved, giving way to pure love, forgiveness, and an eternity of happiness. I hope they await us all someplace where all the questions and pain of life’s hardness are forgotten.

Still I know the questions for all of us live on, and many will continue to search for answers and some will continue to spread lies to confuse the rest of us. The question is will this blog be a part of it any more?

If this is to be the last year of the blog, at the very least I owe my readers the best “ta da” I can.

So… any last words… any one?

Cristin? Some public apologies maybe?

Jen? I actually contacted Jen a short while ago to question her on something Mari had told me about Jen. Jen, of course denied it and questioned my purpose for contacting her. Classic Jen. By the way Jen, I know you are talking to people, I hope you are keeping to the truth and not some made up “cloak and dagger” shit.

Candyce? Susie? Any thing to say? Doubt it. Not under those names at least.

Nerd? I know you are still out there. End some of the confusion, I know you can.

Joey? I know you have some last words, but it will just be the same old shit.

Websleuthers? Where ya at? I’m looking forward to some of the things you all have to say. I doubt you will like what I have to say about all of you.

Nancy? Just kidding, no last words needed from you. In fact I beg you… keep it on your Facebook.

Dorothy? Nothing you can say will ever make up for all the crap you have said and done. But if you have any last words, get ’em out, because you know I will have plenty of last words for you.

That goes for everyone really. Truthspider, Son of Man, Dawhoda, Gino, Mr. Harvard, Radionewz, Julia, Michelle McKee, PS149…

Any last words?

Now’s the time.

Angry Music

#Purge

I’ve been told that the music I listen to is bad for me. It’s too angry:

dph zero rap

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dph black music

LMFAO! Yes, some of my stalked stalkers really don’t like the music I listen too. I believe SOM said something like rap music causes kids to get guns and shoot people and Madonna’s music causes girls to become sluts. I’m paraphrasing and since he is no longer on Facebook I can’t go and read he exact words… but that’s close enough to what he was implying.

Well let’s take see what I’m listening to right now:

Holly shit!! Maybe there is some truth to what my oppressed, obsessers are saying.

There’s no telling what I’m gonna write about next… or who.

The music has taken over… all self-control has been relinquished to the demons of hip hop, punk rock, metal, and pop.

And no one is safe!

One More Time… Why

I’ve made it very clear that I enjoy any and all feed back on my blogs. Comments from the haters, the curious, the crazies, and the more informed are all welcome and make the blogs all the more interesting and informable. There are also quite a few of you that I talk with outside the blogs. Mostly in e-mails (mine is zerodinh@rocketmail.com) or on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/zerosworld/?ref=hl

But also in a few phone calls.

I love hearing from people and discussing the different subjects from the blogs. Of course most people want to talk about the LISK case and that’s fine. Some like to discus the case and others want to discus those who used the internet to manipulate the case (that might be a little too much, but then again some did manipulate it in ways). Since I spent over a year of my life looking very deeply into this subject and those involved (ie. Fluke, MM7, Jen, Dorothy, etc.) I love to discus those parts of my blogs and help in any way to explain any parts of them or answer any questions I can. I really like to hear from those who know some of these people I’ve written about and to hear their thoughts on why they are doing what they are doing.

Again, I talk to different people about different things, and really it’s the Milo/Quiet Pills posts that gets the most views, but it’s the LISK case and the leaches (too harsh… naw) who attached themselves to it that I get the most inquiries about off-blog.

And the most asked question has to be “Why do you blog about LISK and these people?” or “What made you start blogging about LISK and these people?”. Didn’t Dorothy herself ask me this long ago?

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Yes, it’s been asked hundreds of different ways, in fact dawhoda just asked it:

dawhoda why

Like I said it’s been asked a hundred different ways… and I have answered it a hundred different ways. Just in the blogs alone I explain this over and over, so some of you should just do a little more reading. But I also know we get new readers here all the time and they come across the blogs for different reasons and that is probably the first question when you see how much time I have devoted to this subject. So I’ll answer it one more time (notice I didn’t say one last time).

If you want to know how I came to blogging on the subject you have to go back to the first blog I started here on WordPress. It was called the Zero Prophet Blog or as some started calling it “The Red & Black“. I wrote a 3 part post explaining exactly how I first came to the places and people involved in the LISK circles:

https://zeroprophetblog.wordpress.com/2013/03/18/catfish-serial-killers-part-1/

https://zeroprophetblog.wordpress.com/2013/03/23/catfish-serial-killers-part-2/

https://zeroprophetblog.wordpress.com/2013/03/26/catfish-serial-killers-part-3/

I was quickly pulled in to all the comments from places like LISK.com:

http://web.archive.org/web/20110820063936/http://longislandserialkiller.com/2011/08/message-from-the-site-admin/

and Catching LISK:

https://mm7vslisk.wordpress.com/

and decided to make a side blog. It went through a few names as I wrote it, the first was The Long Island Serial Killer and The Internet… quite a title right. I know way too much, but the internet itself was what my blogging had been about, mostly (those who have read the “Red & Black” know that it was a kind of spiritual blog, but was leaning towards our use and misuse of the internet), and since this was the first side blog from it I had intended to make it about how serial killers may be using the internet not only to find victims, but in ways to keep track of and manipulate what was being said about them online. And I did discus some of these types of things. In fact at the beginning I thought there was a good chance MM7 and others were being stalked by a serial killer online. (that’s another question I get asked a lot, do I really believe a serial killer stalked any of these sites including mine, the simple answer is no. I don’t think the serial killer wrote here or any of my other blogs, or on MM7’s blog. I’m not so sure they never wrote on LISK.com or Websleuths, and if they didn’t write there I’m sure they read there. They could be reading this now. I doubt it, but you never know). That quickly changed though, like almost immediately (right about drone time). I quickly started to doubt all of it (and with good reason) and that changed the blog, actually changed both blogs. But this was even more down the line of what I was trying to blog about. People using the internet for nefarious reasons (that fits, right?), and as I continued to blog I continued to pull back layers of so strange onion (I’ve used this metaphor before to describe it, and it really does fit best).

That blog itself went through 3 changes all marked with disclaimers. The first part was just me and what I thought on things (it’s wrong in a lot of areas, but with all the games that were being played, that should be understandable), the second part I had started to talk to MM7, Jen, and others and really started questioning what was being said to me and in comments all over the internet. the third part is where i really dug in and started talking to everyone I could, mostly people who were part of LISK.com in anyway, since that was what the blog really became about, LISK.com and those who commented there. Which is why I changed the name of it to LISK.com Another Look:

https://liskdotcom.wordpress.com/

The more of that onion I peeled back, the curiouser I got. that’s the simple answer, and I believe I said it before, it is my curiosity that mostly brought me to all of this and kept me blogging about all this (long after the ending the LISK blog). My first question was the same… WHY? But if that’s not enough, and you need more of an explanation… there are plenty of other places to read it:

https://liskdotcom.wordpress.com/2013/11/11/for-any-new-readers/

https://liskdotcom.wordpress.com/2013/11/21/for-what-its-worth/

https://zerodinh.wordpress.com/2014/04/06/longislandserialkiller-com/

https://zerodinh.wordpress.com/2014/11/25/my-name-is-zero-so-nice-to-meet-you/

https://zerodinh.wordpress.com/2015/02/19/chronicles-of-crazy/

I’m sure there are more, but you get the idea.

 

 

 

 

dawhoda

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These 2 comments were left the other day, leaving me to wonder who this new commenter was. And what (or who) brings dawhoda to the blog. I have some clues to who dawhoda is. A name and a place, 2 proper nouns to point me in a direction. But I’m more concerned with what (or who) brings dawhoda to my world.

The post in which dawhoda commented on is from over a year ago, titled “Gossip Blog”:

https://zerodinh.wordpress.com/2014/06/29/gossip-blog/

Hmmmm… where have I heard the term “Gossip Blog” recently? LMAO, just playing, but it is funny to point out I long ago discussed this blog being called a gossip blog… circles my friends. Read into it what you want. And if you are lost… 2 people from Florida (MM7 and Hmmmm…) refered to this place as a gossip blog. Maybe they should hook up. Is MM7 a step up or down from Candyce? I really shouldn’t have explained that, it ruined it. Oh well, I still agree with them both, after all they  know all about gossip and blogs and how they go together. Enough of that…

Back to dawhoda…

Both of dawhoda’s lame but similar comments (“go play in traffic”… really? REALLY?) were left in comment threads to and about Nancy. So I’m guessing, possibly even assuming, that dawhoda is here thanks to Nan Nan.

Great.

The last person (that I know of and posted about) to come here, being sent by Nan Nan was Son Of Mankind, remember that guy? Probably not, he was pretty unrememberable. I don’t think he even ever got his own post… but he did make his way into my heart and the nut gallery. Will dawhoda do the same… well they already have their own post, so there’s that. And those comments… pretty nutty.

If you go look and see where Nancy has been spending her time online lately, you get the idea what kind of people she might be meeting up with:

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https://m.facebook.com/CBSNewYork/posts/10153398358024024?__mref=message_bubble

https://m.facebook.com/groups/299556806883746?view=permalink&id=492904134215678&refid=9&_ft_=qid.6216768783307258415%3Amf_story_key.492904134215678%3Atl_objid.492904134215678&refsrc=https%3A%2F%2Fm.facebook.com%2Fgroups%2F299556806883746&_rdr#_=_

https://m.facebook.com/groups/299556806883746?view=permalink&id=492642237575201&refid=18&_ft_=qid.6216784550207738599%3Amf_story_key.492642237575201%3Atl_objid.492642237575201&__mref=message_bubble

https://m.facebook.com/groups/299556806883746?view=permalink&id=492593880913370&refid=18&_ft_=qid.6216785357556918616%3Amf_story_key.492593880913370%3Atl_objid.492593880913370&__mref=message_bubble

https://m.facebook.com/groups/299556806883746?view=permalink&id=492854254220666&refid=18&_ft_=qid.6216785920278087702%3Amf_story_key.492854254220666%3Atl_objid.492854254220666&__mref=message_bubble

https://m.facebook.com/groups/299556806883746?view=permalink&id=492846370888121&refid=18&_ft_=qid.6216786169406957997%3Amf_story_key.492846370888121%3Atl_objid.492846370888121&__mref=message_bubble

https://m.facebook.com/groups/299556806883746?view=permalink&id=491594324346659&p=40&refid=18&__mref=message_bubble

I could go on, but no need. Nancy seems to be finding common grounds with other Hillary Clinton haters. Nancy joining these groups says a lot about these groups… lmao. Maybe I should try to join one.

So is dawhoda from one of these anti Hillary groups? Maybe. Does it matter, probably not. I doubt anyone really cares much about what dawhoda has to say, and I really doubt they’ll be back. Plus is dawhoda’s presence really worth bringing Nancy back up? Who is the crazy one here?

Well, if you think bringing Nancy back up is crazy… wait and see who I’m bringing back up next