One Last Christmas Gift

I hope everyone had a nice Christmas. This is our last Christmas together on the ZW Blog, and there’s one last present under that tree for everyone!

It’s the ZW soundtrack! Newly released just in time for Christmas (and the end of the blog)! It has 20 tracks and a secret song at the end!

Merry Christmas Everyone!


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Track 1: The Monster– Eminem ft. Rihanna

Track 2: Zero– Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Track 3: Three Is The Magic Number– Blind Melon

Track 4: Cunt – Kat McSnatch

Track 5: Fuck You– Lily Allen

Track 6: Restless Heart Syndrome– Green Day

Track 7: My Name– Xzibit Feat, Eminem & Nate Dogg

Track 8: Richard– Obie Trice Feat. Eminem

Track 9: Brand New Key– Melanie

Track 10: Relief– Sixx A.M.

Track 11: California Kids– Weezer

Track 12: Making Friends– Lagwagon

Track 13: Rhyme Or Reason– Eminem

Track 14: Wreak Havoc– Skylar Grey

Track 15: The Bitter Pill– Warrant

Track 16: What You Give– Tesla

Track 17: Sloth’s Revenge– Dirty Heads

Track 18: Heathens– 21 Pilots

Track 19: All Bad Things– Motley Crue

Track 20: Encore– Eminem Frat. Dr. Dre. & 50 Cent










Hidden Track

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Champs Élysées


I was walking down the avenue and my heart wanted something unknown(new)
I felt like saying good day to anybody
To anybody and that was you, and I said something (anything)
It was enough to me to talk to you to make you mine

At Champs Élysées, at Champs Élysées
If it’s raining or if sun is shining, if it’s noon or midnight
You have anything you want at Champs Élysées

You told me “I have a meeting in the basement with the madmen
who live with guitars in their hands from evening till morning”
So I joined you, we sang and we danced
But we never even thought of kissing or hugging.

At Champs Élysées, at Champs Élysées
If it’s raining or if sun is shining, if it’s noon or midnight
You have anything you want at Champs Élysées


As I wrote the 420 post the other day I was learning about the Paris shooting. That’s the world we live in today. Our good times and celebrations are constantly being hijacked by those who want to take away our individual freedoms.

The attack comes just days before the French presidential election.  That can’t be helpful. France has already been dealing with the tragedies caused by these freedom hijackers over the past few years making the election an important one and a confusing one. Something echoing throughout the world. People are scared, people are pissed, people are grieving. And they are searching for answers. Wanting to stop the madness, but not knowing how to do it.

I don’t have any answers. I just want to say how bad this sucks.

Until the other day if someone mentioned Champs Élysées, I would think of that NOFX cover. I would think of a place in Paris where 2 strangers might meet and fall in love while “madmen” played beautiful music on their guitars. Paris, the city of love, right? I have danced in the pit to this song more than once. When I play it there are great memories and just all over good feelings. It’s just one of those songs that makes me feel good about everything. I want to put my arms around those around me and dance and sing.

Fuck these other madmen who want to change that. I will not let them. At least I don’t want to let them.

I do not want dates and places to become sad memories of senseless tragedies.

But to be honest, if it continues this way, I don’t know if that is possible to stop.

Yes, no answers here,  I’m not even sure why I’m writing this post. It just sucks.

I want it to stop, I know it won’t.

You Can’t Win

I think we need a little break. Everyone is so upset and I feel a little responsible. So how about a nice sing along… it’s been a while since we had a good one. This one is my favorite song from The Wiz, “The Crow Anthem”. So hit play on the Michael Jackson video, the lyrics are down below. Hear it, sing it, feel it! Because, “you can’t win, you can’t break even, and you can’t get out of the game…”

[Verse 1]
You can’t win, you can’t break even
And you can’t get out of the game
People keep saying things are going to change
But they look just like they’re staying the same
You can’t win, get over your head
And you only have yourself to blame

[Chorus: Michael Jackson (The Crows)]
You can’t win, chile (You can’t win chile)
You can’t break even
And you can’t get out of the game

[Verse 2: Michael Jackson (The Crows)]
You can’t win, the world keeps moving
And you’re standing far behind
People keep saying, things will get better
(Just to ease your state of mind)
(So you lean back)(And you smoke that smoke)
(And you drink your glass of wine)

Sayin’ you can’t win, chile
You can’t break even
And you can’t get out of the game

[Bridge: Michael Jackson (The Crows)]
You can’t win, you can’t win no way
If your story stays the same
(You ain’t winning) No, no
(But it’s nice to see you, I’m awfully glad you came)
(Better cool it, cause it ain’t about losin’)
Then the world has got no shame

You can’t win, chile
You can’t break even
And you can’t get out of the game

[Verse 3: Michael Jackson (The Crows)]
You can’t win, you can’t break even
Ain’t the way it’s supposed to be
(You’ll be spending) No, no, oh
(Your little bit of money)
While someone else rides for free
(Learn your lesson) Ooo
(Refuel your mind before some turkey blows out your flame)

[Outro: Michael Jackson (The Crows)]
You can’t win, chile
(No, you can’t win) [4x]

You can’t win, chile
You can’t break even
And you can’t get out of the game
You can’t get out of the game
You can’t get out, woo, of the game, no, no

3 Of The Best Albums Of 2016


First let me say, the title reads “3 Of The Best” not “The 3 Best”. So don’t give me any grief about there being better albums last year, maybe there were. I’ve yet to hear the new Sixx A.M. album (hoping to get it for Christmas) and I’m sure  that will be at the top of my list. Also not everyone has the same taste in music… Dorothy obviously hates my taste in music… too angry for her. Still these 3 albums will be hard to beat in my opinion.

So a little while back Sassy (for new readers: that’s my wife), came home and told me she got me a present. Before she had went out I had mentioned I needed to head to the record store because there several new albums out I needed to pick up, so I knew she got me an album.

I sat there all excited as she reached in to a bag and pulled out the new Blink 182 CD. Fuck yea!  I had really been waiting for that one. Then she said, “Wait, there’s more”.  And she reached in and pulled out the new Green Day CD. Sweet! Another one I wanted! But she wasn’t done… she reached in and pulled out a third CD (my baby knows me so well), Weezer! Oh hell yea! 3 new CDs from 3 of my favorite bands. I was set!

And can I tell you they did not disappoint. All three albums kick ass and show just why these 3 bands are 3 of the best still out there making albums.

Since I have been listening to them over and over for the past few months I thought I’d go over them all for all of you.

You’re welcome. LOL.

So as I have said before, “The Music Album” is one of the many things that has been screwed up by the internet. Music is now made in single tracks to be collected off YouTube  or other such places. Don’t get me wrong, radio always made sure the single was an important part of music. Many people bought albums for just one song they heard off the radio and I can tell you from experience of working at record stores in the 90’s that lots of people went looking for the “cassette single” never realizing how good the whole album was and therefore missing out on great songs. A good example of this is Offspring’s “Come Out And Play”. Everyone came in looking for that single not realizing how great an album “Smash” was/is.  I was always a whole album kind of guy. I liked (still like) to put the album on, listen to it from beginning to end and see where the artist can take me. But the internet killed the album all together. Now there aren’t many albums being made that are worth buying… the single has found its true home on the internet. songs are made for the download numbers… and albums on a whole seem to be less important… or not important at all.

And this is why I was so glad these 3 albums were ALBUMS. I can put them on and off I went. It definitely helped that California was a running theme on a few of them. You know I love my California. Which brings us to the first album, Blink 182: California:


I heard the first single, “She’s Out Of Her Mind” on the radio. And I like it, but it sounded like a younger Blink 182, and I was afraid the album would try to hard to be like they are still a high school pop-punk band instead of the growing sound that they had matured into with each album. Plus I felt the song was missing Tom. I think that was my worst fear, that without Tom it just wouldn’t sound like Blink 182. I mean other than Boxcar Racer, I wasnt a big fan of their solo stuff. I like Mark and Tom harmonizing together with Travis pounding away on the drums. The 3 of them together made the sound of Blink 182 (I know Travis wasn’t there for the early albums, and I do love those albums too maybe even more… but for argument’s sake and the sake of this blog, the 3 of them make the sound).

I was worried for nothing, the album works on all aspects for me. It sounds great, lyrics are good, and the concept well, California… it don’t get any better.

Here;s a track list. The whole album is great, but I put 3 stars next to my favorite tracks:

1.*** “Cynical” 1:55
2. Bored to Death 3:55
3.** She’s Out of Her Mind 2:42
4.*** “Los Angeles” 3:03
5. “Sober”
6. “Built This Pool” 0:16
7.*** “No Future” 3:45
8.*** “Home Is Such a Lonely Place”
9.*** “Kings of the Weekend”
  • Hoppus
  • Barker
  • Skiba
  • Feldmann
  • Hodges
10. “Teenage Satellites”
  • Hoppus
  • Barker
  • Skiba
  • Feldmann
  • Hodges
11. “Left Alone” 3:09
12.*** “Rabbit Hole” 2:35
13.*** “San Diego”
  • Hoppus
  • Barker
  • Skiba
  • Feldmann
  • Stump
14. “The Only Thing That Matters” 1:57
15.*** “California”
16. “Brohemian Rhapsody” 0:30

With song titles like “Los Angles”,  “San Diego”. and “California” how can you not love it? I will admit, there are quite a few songs where I wish I could have heard with Tom, but even the single grew on me. In all honesty this album is the best to expect from Blink 182 after all these years, meaning it stands up with all the rest. With or without Tom.

I’m gonna play one song from each album (so we end up with 3 songs… duh). The one I chose from this album needs no explanation:

Now on to Green Day’s Revolution Radio:


1. “Somewhere Now” 4:08
2. Bang Bang 3:25
3. *** “Revolution Radio” 3:00
4.*** “Say Goodbye” 3:39
5.*** “Outlaws” 5:02
6. “Bouncing Off the Wall” 2:40
7.*** Still Breathing 3:44
8.*** “Youngblood” 2:32
9. “Too Dumb to Die” 3:23
10. “Troubled Times” 3:04
11.*** “Forever Now”

  • I. “I’m Freaking Out”
  • II. “A Better Way to Die”
  • III. “Somewhere (Reprise)”

  • 1:57
  • 1:47
  • 3:08
12. “Ordinary World” (lyrics and music by Billie Joe Armstrong) 3:00

If you like Green Day you should like this album. It’s a little like the rock opera’s American Idiot and 21st Century Breakdown. Though I found it more like their last 3 albums ¡Uno!¡Dos!, and ¡Tré! Point is, it’s all Green Day. The other 2 albums were easier to choose what songs to play. This one I had I debated on. I decided on the song that sounded the least like Green Day. I kept finding myself coming back to it. I get a lot from this song. I hope some of you will as well:

I saved the best for last. The new self titled Weezer album.

Weezer had made 3 other self titled albums. Each one would become known by the color of the album cover. Blue, Green, and Red. Each of these are fucking awesome. Blue and Red are masterpieces and 2 of my favorite albums. The color of this album (the band on the beach, so you know where this is going) is mostly white, therefore earning the name White Album.  Which just happens to be the name of one of the biggest masterpieces of all time.So this album had a lot to live up to:


My favorite place! Let’s look at the track list:

1.*** “California Kids” Rivers Cuomo, Dan Wilson 3:25
2.*** “Wind in Our Sail” Cuomo, Scott Chesak, Ryan Spraker 2:53
3.*** Thank God for Girls Cuomo, Alex Goose, Michael Balzer, Alex Balzer, Bill Petti 3:30
4.*** “(Girl We Got A) Good Thing” Cuomo 3:25
5.*** Do You Wanna Get High? Cuomo 3:27
6.*** King of the World Cuomo, Jarrad Kritzstein 3:24
7.*** “Summer Elaine and Drunk Dori” Cuomo 3:25
8.*** “L.A. Girlz” Cuomo, Brian Bell, Luther Russell 3:29
9.*** “Jacked Up” Cuomo, Jonathan Coffer, Hugh Pescod 2:53
10.*** “Endless Bummer” Cuomo, Bell, Russell 4:14

I’m not saying this album should be compared to the other White Album. I’m not even saying it’s the best Weezer album (though it’s up there). All I’m saying is as soon as I heard that first song, I was hooked. And the rest of the album took me on a journey that only the best albums can do. This album made me want to write this post.

Before I leave you with that opening track, let me just say, I was once a “California Kid”and this song gets put on repeat a lot! I’ll always be a Californian, and I know Vegas isn’t that far from my true home… but sometimes the desert seems like the furthest place from those California beaches I grew up on. As for the kid thing… I know I’m a long way from there, but I’ll always be a kid at heart.

At the end of the day (have I ever mentioned how much I hate when people say that) if we all find ourselves on a sinking ship… head to California… I’ll meet you at the beach… I’ll show ya the sunshine.

AUTHORS NOTE: this Weezer video is actually the third of a somewhat trilogy. To see the other 2 videos, go to the ZW Facebook.

#Three And Music


So one idea I had for #Three was to make a group of posts called “3 Songs“. where I would post 3 songs that all had something to do with each other. The first post was called “3 Songs”. But although I had the 3 songs pulled aside I didn’t write a post. These are the 3 songs:




See how they all have the number 3 in the titles? 3 Songs. The next post would have been called something like “3 Old Songs” and I would have posted 3 songs about getting old. Or maybe “3 Rock Songs” where I’d post 3 songs about rocks. Or something like that. You get it. Doesn’t matter, I never got to it and there just isn’t enough time left in this third year to get to it. Too bad ’cause I had lots of ideas for it, back when I first thought of doing it (the blog was still in year 2 so I had to wait) I would hear a song and say, that would be a good song for 3 songs and see what other 2 songs I could connect it to. It was fun that never got to the blog. Sorry about that. I hope you liked the 3 songs I had picked out for the post that never was.

The first one, “Three’s A Charm”, is from a band called Sea Hags. They are what some call glam metal or a hair band. I thought they were cool but they were kind of late to the party and missed out on the late ’80s  uproar for the excess of sex, drugs, and hairspray. Still if you find this song cool like I did, I would suggest checking out the rest of the self-titled album. You might dig it. The second is a little more well know, School of Fish’s “3 Strange Days”. I have always liked this song and in fact it inspired a very strange dream I had once, that took place over 3 days ( I wasn’t asleep for 3 days, but 3 days passed in the dream). The third song is Britney Spears, 3. I think it’s self-explanatory why I picked it (it’s called 3).

So there ya go. The real post would have probably been a little longer and gone more into each song, plus it would have been followed with other post, each with 3 new songs somehow connected. It might have been fun. Oh well.

I didn’t bring this all up for nothing though. For one I had these 3 videos sitting in an unnamed, unfinished post and I wanted to delete it or post it. Plus I wanted to lead into one last #Three post. It’s also about music…

Angry Music


I’ve been told that the music I listen to is bad for me. It’s too angry:

dph zero rap

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dph black music

LMFAO! Yes, some of my stalked stalkers really don’t like the music I listen too. I believe SOM said something like rap music causes kids to get guns and shoot people and Madonna’s music causes girls to become sluts. I’m paraphrasing and since he is no longer on Facebook I can’t go and read he exact words… but that’s close enough to what he was implying.

Well let’s take see what I’m listening to right now:

Holly shit!! Maybe there is some truth to what my oppressed, obsessers are saying.

There’s no telling what I’m gonna write about next… or who.

The music has taken over… all self-control has been relinquished to the demons of hip hop, punk rock, metal, and pop.

And no one is safe!

Dying Heroes

The track above comes from a Nikki Sixx solo project called 58. The song is called All My Heroes Are Dead Now. The album is called Diet For A New America. It came out in 2000. Don’t feel bad if you never heard of it, most people haven’t, which is too bad, because it is quite a remarkable album. Different from most of the stuff out 16 years ago, even different from most of the stuff out today. The album was way ahead of its time, and still is in my opinion. Please check it out, you won’t be disappointed.

When I first heard this song back at the turn of the century, the impact of what it was saying hit deep. It wasn’t a new concept of course.  People have been singing about losing their heroes long before I came to be. It’s a part of life that can’t be skipped unless you leave early or choose not to have heroes. Both ideas are very sad to me.

I have been lucky enough to both to have lived a little while and to have many, many heroes. I’ve use the word lucky a lot lately… I definitely feel I have lived a lucky life… I also feel lucky is just another word for blessed. And in this world of contradictions, being blessed is also being cursed. I know, that doesn’t sound right, but it’s true.

Back when I first heard the song I was quite a bit younger than I am today, (duh, 16 years younger) and it made me think of my lost heroes like John Lennon, Sid Vicious, and Kurt Cobain. But to be honest, other than Kurt most of my dead heroes were dead before they were heroes and Kurt was a quick flash, in and out, still very influential to me and his death was a shock and left its hole, but again it was all so quick. Also, with these heroes (John, Sid, and Kurt) their deaths were part of the whole romance, part of the story, part of the hero. Sorry words can’t help me get to what I’m trying to say, but  I know most of you get it.

I never want to claim to know what a writer of a song is trying to say, but I definitely don’t mind talking about what the songs say to me. And in this song, I knew that there might come a day when I would feel all my heroes were gone, the blessings of the curse.

I turned 45 the other day. I know most who read here are a little older than me and hate when I talk about how OLD I’m getting. I know, I know, I’m still really young… but I can’t help it, I feel my age. If it’s any consolation, as I’ve pointed out before, I’ve lived a very excessive life, and therefore I don’t just feel my age, but the life I lived as well, and damn it, I feel old.

Regardless, 16 years later (older), and the first of my heroes (the ones who have been there from the beginning and make you feel like they will be there forever) is dead. And I won’t lie, I’m not ready for it. And I’m not taking the news of David Bowie’s death well. Even after a week it’s still sitting very heavy on all my thoughts. I’ve been playing all my Bowie records all week remembering all the years his music was there for me, after all it’s been there my whole life. I really haven’t been doing too much else this week. Haven’t checked any social media or the blogs (and I see I’ve missed a few things, but we shall get to ALL of that in good time). I plan to write a more detailed memorial for David Bowie soon, when I can deal with this loss clearer. For now I’ll end this post with how last weekend crashed into my life, like a diesel truck hauling nitro glycerine.

I had spent Saturday January 9th, 2016 listening to Howard Stern and catching up. I hadn’t listened in a few months. I was devastated hearing of Riley Martin passing away recently:

Riley Martin Dead: ‘Howard Stern Show’ Regular & Alien Expert Dies At 69

Damn, I loved Riley Martin. His death saddened me even if I wasn’t too surprised by the news. Howard had often said Riley did not seem to be doing well, and since there had been a couple other Howard Stern show deaths this year, mentioned in this earlier post:

I had thought that a third death was imminent, and that it would probably be Riley. So I was not surprised, but still very sad from the news.

Later that night I thought about making a post about the things discussed on Howard Stern that day and thinking about Riley. And then I thought about how Natalie Cole and Lemmy Kilmister from Motorhead had both recently died. The 58 song came back to me. These were heroes to people, lots of people. Their deaths were more than just deaths, they were the loss of heroes.

Now some of you may doubt this part, but this is what happened and you can check television listings for that Saturday night if you don’t believe me. I was sitting there thinking about dying heroes and the 58 song and a David Bowie documentary came on the T.V. It was called David Bowie: 5 Years. I had never seen it before, and it was so good and brought me to some great memories I have that go along with all those Bowie songs discussed in the documentary. It was cheering me up and then the drastic thought came to me.

The song tells the truth, my heroes will all be dead one day.

Not David Bowie though, I told myself as “Diamond Dogs” played on my T.V. I couldn’t even let the thought form completely. I still hadn’t seen a David Bowie show, surely David wasn’t going anywhere till I saw him live. But something dark nudged at my soul. Still I would not let the thought finish in my head. It was just too much to wrap my head around.

Until the next day when I was forced to finish the thought.

I had just come to the blog and was deciding if I would write about Howard Stern or the many other things in my head begging to be worked into posts, the television was on,  news (as usual) and they announced that David Bowie had died.

I just looked at the screen at first not believing it, it was a trick of some kind. I looked at my wife who immediately teared up, she was seeing what I was seeing.

I cried out. “No…”

My wife said that she had woken up last night saw I was watching something about David Bowie and she had thought that she would really like to see him live again (Sassy was lucky (blessed) enough to see David Bowie live with Nine Inch Nails), I told her I had been thinking how great it would be for us to go see him live together. Then we both had tears running down our faces.

I turned off the computer, no longer in the mood to write a post and put on my copy of Ziggy Stardust And The Spiders From Mars.

And that’s where I’ve been the whole week, lost in my Bowie records, felling my age, mourning the loss of my hero.

Motley In Vegas

So, we moved to Las Vegas, had a 4th child (another boy, so 2 girls, 2 boys), and then everything changed.

I won’t get into the details or place too much blame, but my wife and I had outgrown each other and decided to get divorced.

As most of you reading know, I got custody of the kids but I didn’t raise them alone, because I met Sassy (she worked with me at Tower Records). Sassy was an angel sent straight from heaven, my soul mate, best friend, and with out her I don’t know what would have happened, an angel sent straight from heaven.

And guess what… Vince got back with Motley Crue!

Yep, Vince rejoined the band and the result was Generation Swine:

Generation swine frontal

In my list of favorite Motley albums, this one comes in second, right after the first album Too Fast For Love.

As usual, my first taste of it was a video:

What a freaking cool video! What a freaking cool song! And the fact that Hustler Magazine creator Larry Flint being in the video was a lot like when they did the Clockwork Orange thing. No need to elaborate there, I don’t think.

For the first time, I had the internet to see what people thought of the new album, and most hated it. They said it was one of the worst. Really? Fucking haters. This album was way ahead of its time. And once again, people did not like Motley changing with the times. Well. People other than me. I love this album! One listen to the updated Shout At The Devil and you knew Crue was back and they were playing for keeps:

So when they came to Vegas, I was there. This time I would be taking a lot of people for their first Motley concert. My future wife Sassy had never seen them, that needed to be fixed. My sister was in town visiting, so I got her a ticket for her first Motley experience. Two of Sassy’s close friends also came with us to see Motley Crue for the first time. This would also be the first Motley Crue show for one of my kids. Well, first one that wasn’t in  utero.

My oldest who was now 10 years old came along for her first concert and just like mine, it was Motley Crue!

So me, Sassy, my daughter, my sister, and two good friends all in August of 1997 all went to see if Motley still had it.

I should point out that they were playing at the Aladdin Casino which was being closed down and remodeled. So this was the last show to be played there before it shut down:

And let me tell you, it was one of the wildest shows I have ever seen. First off Live Wire definitely returned to the best song of the night but it was joined by a couple new ones. Right before Vince had left the Crue, they had released a greatest hits album to celebrate 10 years together and on it was a remake of Sex Pistol’s Anarchy in The U.K. and a new song called Primal Scream. Many consider Primal Scream their favorite Motley song and with good reason, the song is the shit! It came out, as I said right before Vince was gone, so I had only heard it live with John Corabi, and I have to admit it just wasn’t right. But now with Vince back it could become what it was meant to be live. Which is awesome!

Yes. that song is the shit!

Together with the Anarchy cover, the show we saw that night was very punk rock. My roots, and I fucking loved it!

Towards the end of the show the band said since it was the last night of the theater being opened that maybe some destruction was needed. They told everyone to come down to the front. We were pretty far back, and it was my 10-year-old daughters first concert so we stayed back. Well most of us did. Sassy’s friends wanted to head down and I said to them, “What are you waiting for?”

They went down and we watched as most of the theater crowed to the front of the stage and begin to rip out chairs, passing them aside making a standing room only floor where it was all seated theater just moments before.

It was madness and the boys in the band were encouraging all of it!

It didn’t stop after the show either. That place was out of control, everyone trying to tear the place down. When I came out of the bathroom two girl were dragging a pay phone across the floor. At closer look, I realized it was Sassy and her friend. A security guard quickly came up and told them to leave it alone. And just for the record someone else had pulled it from the wall, Sassy and her friend just started dragging it after it was on the ground.

There were cops lined up at the front ready to come in if needed, but over all everyone kept their cool, no one was hurt and no real riot broke out.

Just a side note here… a few years later Motley Crue returned to Vegas and did find themselves in trouble for inciting a riot:

Unfortunately I was not at that show, and I want tot stress, that all though the Aladdin show got a little out of hand, my daughter was never in danger. It was a fun night and EVERYONE had the time of their lives. I still have a “no smoking” sign that I took from the theater  hanging in my bathroom.

And all those who came with me to the show now understood what a big deal a Motley Crue show was.

Live Without Vince

Exactly wo years after I sat in the hospital holding my daughter after one of the best concerts I would ever see in my life,  tragedy struck

February 14, 1992 Vince Neil was kicked out of Motley Crue. I was devastated.

I was still working as a manager of a video store in Covina, when I heard Vince Neil on a local radio station (Pirate Radio). I was at work and a customer came in while I was listening to it and a tear fell from my eye. The customer kidded me about it, but only a little, my customers knew how big of a Motley fan I was.  In fact working at a video store in Covina meant  a lot of my customers went to school with Vince and/or Tommy. And in the 3 years I spent at The Video Studio in Covina, California, I met all sorts of people who had opinions of Vince Neil and Tommy Lee, I met ex girlfriends, class mates, and even Tommy Lee’s sister and mother once. My brother actually went to school with Vince Neil’s daughter. Most people didn’t have nice things about Vince, a lot of guys claiming they kicked his ass, blah blah, blah. Everyone loved Tommy though, a classmate of his told me he was always banging on the desk like drums and saying he was gonna be a rock star one day.

So yes, my customers knew I was a Crue Junkie and they fed me well. One of Vince Neil’s ex girlfriends sold me a bunch of stuff from those early days including an autographed copy of Leathur Records version of Too Fast For Love. For those who aren’t die-hard fans I’ll explain. Motley Crue couldn’t get signed at first, so they started their own record label called Lethur Records and released an early version of Too Fast For Love. The album sold over like 20, 000 copies and Electra Records snatched them up, dropped the song Stick To Your Guns, and touched up the rest, and released it under Electra. The copy I have is even before what The Crue sold. The one I have is an original before art work was changed (Vince Neil didn’t like the way his hair looked in it, from what the ex girlfriend says. And in the one I have the hair is real puffy and funny looking against the white background of the album. The ex girlfriend told me Nikki called him tampon head, that tells you what it looks like. So they cropped Vince’s hair in the copies they sold and on the version Electra put out.) My copy was Vince’s personal copy from what I’m told. And that was just some of the cool things I got from Vince’s ex. Thanks to her being a member at the video store I worked at, my Motley collection is huge!

So there I was at work, tears running down my cheek while Vince Neil announced on the radio that he was no longer part of Motley Crue. Yes, I was devastated!

Nikki and the rest of the band would later come out and say Vince quit the band, something still disputed to this day. Regardless the result was Vince going solo and Motley getting a new lead singer.

There were lots of rumors about who might replace Vince but the guy who got the gig was John Corabi, lead singer of a band called The Scream who had a small hit not to long before he left his band and joined up with The Crue:

I was desperately waiting to see and hear what this would do to Motley, and like usual it came from a video. I was visiting my dad when this video came on MTV:

I was ecstatic. It was like when I first heard Dr. Feelgood or the first time I saw the Too Young To Fall In Love Video. It was so new, so different, and yet it was Motley Crue. And the video has major “Clockwork Orange” references, easily one of my top 3 favorite movies. I couldn’t wait for the new album to come out.

Since the last time I had seen them live we had another child. Our first boy. We had moved to Oakland for a while, back to Lake Elsinore before returning to Covina. I was working at Tower Records in West Covina (The Video Studio sadly closed down) when the new album would come out, simply titled Motley Crue. Working there I got to hear what people thought and most people didn’t like it. I don’t think people were ready for it, but to this day it is still one of my favorites.

With songs like Misunderstood, Drift Away, and Loveshine:

This was a more mature Motley Crue and maybe some of the fans weren’t ready for it (like they weren’t ready for Theater of Pain, or how they wouldn’t be ready for Generation Swine in the near future, but we’ll get to that in the next post). I get people don’t like change, but that’s one of the reasons I stuck with the Crue so long, they grew with me… not that there aren’t some great rockers on the album:

The album was great, fuck all the haters, and when I saw tickets were going on sale for the “Anywhere There’s Electricity” show I was there to get them.

Since there was a Ticket Master right in Tower Records I went while I was at work and got 4 tickets for August, 1994 at the Palladium. I was going to see the Crue for the third time! Well most of them. Three of them and a new guy. This would be the only time I see them live without all 4 of the original Crue.

My then wife of course went to the show, it was only fair that she get to see the band without the contractions. I took my brother Michael, I believe some of you know him, (it was his very first concert) and my then wife’s brother (is that a confusing sentence? I took my ex-wife (though she was my wife at the time), her brother, and my brother.

This was just a few days before I would move to Las Vegas and it was quite different then the shows I was used to.

I was used to big arena shows, Palladium is tiny. Which for me made the night very personal.

Highlights: Nikki Sixx doing a bass solo and jumped into the crowd, body surfing while playing his bass. The new album was way heavier on the bass than the previous albums and Nikki’s bass was like the heartbeat of the show.

I also crowd surfed. It was my first time doing it and it was fucking awesome. If you have never been floating on top of the crowd as your favorite band rocks out, you haven’t lived. When you come down from the crowd you end up in that area between the crowd and the stage where a big security guard rushes you out and back into the show. One of the times I came down into this area I found myself staring right up at Nikki and he was looking at me. He held out his hand reaching down at me from the stage, I held mine out and shook his hand, mumbling “I love you”. I know, what a corny fruitcake. But I was starstruck.  And at that moment I was a teen age girl, I know it and accept it.

Tommy’s extravagant drum solo was stripped way down, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t bad ass! Fit into the pounding solo was some of Tommy’s song Planet Boom:

The song is from the EP Quarternary, a special CD you could order where each member of Motley did their own song. I have a couple of copies of it including the Japanese import with several extra songs. What a “fan boy”.

Although the drum solo was simple, it hit the mark. It was the first time, and maybe the only time, I saw people form a mosh pit to a drum solo.

I should point out my brother had a great time at his first concert, though my ex wife’s brother did not enjoy it as much. He said he had a hard time figuring out what songs were playing. He didn’t know the new stuff too well and the old stuff did sound different with John singing, but that’s what I liked about it. It was so different. My ex had a good time too, after all there was no one in her tummy banging to get out and enjoy the show. Though she did have a little one in her tummy. We didn’t know it at the time, but she was a few weeks pregnant with out fourth and last child together (next post).

Well fuck my ex’s brother, the show was awesome! Though since it was so different, it was the only time Live Wire was not the song of the night. For me it wasn’t really one song but a group of them that stands out.

Towards the end of the show, some couches were put out on stage and a bunch of people were picked from the audience and went up and sat in them. It was set up like a living room and the band did an acoustic session, with about 10 fans sitting around on stage with them. I wasn’t one of them, but I still enjoyed watching it.

They did Home Sweet Home. a cover of The Beatles’ Revolution, Loveshine, and Don’t go Away Mad (Just Go Away). All acoustic. Definitely the highlight of the night for me.

It was an end of an era for me.

Shortly afterwards, I said good bye to Southern California where I had lived for most of my 23 years at that point and headed to the lights of Las Vegas. And by the time Motley would come back around life once again had changed drastically while staying quite the same.

Dr. Feelgood

By the time 1987 came around with Motley’s  fourth album “Girls. Girls. Girls” A lot had changed in my life. A lot for just 2 short years at least. I had moved from Perris, California to live in Lake Elsinore, California with my dad (my mom and step dad were getting back together and it was for the best that I go live with my dad). And then not long after that I got my girlfriend pregnant and we were now living in our own studio apartment (with a Murphy bed that came right out of the wall like Tommy’s drum set from that first concert).

The album came out and a concert followed. First the opening band was Whitesnake. But that didn’t last because David Coverdale is such an egomaniac, dick. Can you believe he was saying his band was bringing all the girls to the concert. Yea fuck him, lol. The next band to join the tour was Guns N Roses. You don’t know how bad I wanted to go to that show. But as I said my girlfriend was pregnant. And when the Crue rolled into town she was like 8 months pregnant.  To make things worse my ex girlfriend, who had moved away the year before showed up with 2 tickets to the show and wanted to take me. There was no way I could leave my pregnant girlfriend and go to a concert with my ex girlfriend, no matter how bad I wanted to, there was just no way. So I missed that show and I missed Tommy’s drum solo where he went in a complete 360. Luckily the video for Wild Side captured it for me:

Man, I can’t believe I missed that concert.

The next time Motley came around wouldn’t be till 1990. My life had changed a lot again in those years and yet also things were very similar. I was now married with a daughter and living in Covina (which is where Motley Crue formed, by the way). I was working as a manager of a video store  when tickets went on sale for the February 13th show at the Forum with opening band Faster Pussycat (another one of my favorite bands). February 13th was the day before our first wedding anniversary (yes, I married my first wife on Valentines Day, I don’t recommend it). I had to get tickets. The only thing was, just like last time Motley Crue was on tour, my then girlfriend, now wife, was pregnant again.

But it didn’t seem to be a problem, she was due the week before. LOL.

The newest Crue album had come out the year before and from the first time I heard the title track Dr. Feelgood, (which I had heard on the radio a few weeks before the album came out. We didn’t have an internet to chase down songs before the albums were out. So that first single was all you got to go by) I knew that album was going to be great. And it was, so yes, tickets had to be bought:

I couldn’t wait to see Motley Crue for a second time. I had been to a few shows in between that first one in ’85 and this one in ’90, Iron Maiden, Guns n Roses with Aerosmith, in fact just a few months earlier I had won tickets to go see Guns n Roses with The Rolling Stones at the Los Angeles Coliseum.

Yes, just a few months before this Motley Crue show I had gone and seen Guns n Roses open for The Rolling Stones. What a great show, but due to the fact I didn’t take my wife, then a few months pregnant, not my decision alone, but it was a bad one, sort of, I guess, lol. It caused lots of problems but that’s all you get about the Guns N Roses/Rolling Stones concert for now, no one here is ready for that story!

Still because I didn’t take my wife to the Rolling Stones, because we didn’t see the Girls, Girls, Girls show, because the following day was our first wedding anniversary, you might be able to understand the decisions made that day February 13th, 1990.

I remember waking up in a really great mood. Everyone else was already up (we had 2 roommates at the time and they were both in the kitchen with my wife, both roommates were female, not that it matters, but just thought I’d point that out, keep Dorothy on the right track when she tries to use it to fit in her craziness). I went to the kitchen to see how my wife was. The past few days had been spent questioning the upcoming show. She had not had the baby yet and was very, very pregnant, due any day.

Everyone was smiling, which worried me, but she said she was felling fine. She said not to worry everything would be fine. Now I don’t want to sound like the worlds biggest dick here (you can go read many other posts to see that) but I was worried and had been for a few days. It had been obvious the baby was not coming soon enough for my wife to go to the show. That time had come and gone. In fact  if she had gone in to labor before the show, I most likely wasn’t going either. I know what a thing to worry about, but it was Motley Crue!

Well all that was past now anyways, the day was here and the only question was, did my wife feel up to going to the show. She said she was and my day got even brighter. Go ahead judge me, but again it was Motley Crue.

Alright, I was still nervous, but as the song says “On With The Show”! I put all four Motley CDs in the CD changer and got ready for the show. Another thing that had changed, tapes to CDs… I know, neither one matter anymore. Technology is a bitch.

So we got ready, kissed our daughter good-bye and headed for L.A. (about a 20 minute drive with out traffic).

We had a bottle of champagne that we were saving for our first anniversary (which remember, was the following day) and once we got to the Forum’s parking lot, we opened it up and had a glass, toasting our anniversary (and Motley Crue). Into the show we went.

I can’t tell you what it was like to be 9 months pregnant at a Motley Crue show, but I can say, I kept asking my wife how she was, and she kept replying she was fine.

Faster Pussycat came on and were awesome! When the lights went down and the arena was filled with lighters (a practice long gone, replaced now by cell phones) and they did House Of Pain:

Powerful… powerful!

Pussycat was done and it was time for The Crue to take the stage. We were way at the back, not like the 8th roll I was in the first time, but I didn’t care I was here again, and I was ready!

Green lasers took to the front of the stage creating images. First a pentagram, then the theatrical masks one smiling, the other with one a tear of blood, that quickly became a motorcycle. All along a booming voice was telling us about the trip we had made so far. But now it was time for the Doctor and with that  Allister Fiend, the lovable werewolf mascot of Motley Crue appeared in the green laser show dressed as a Doctor… as the booming voice announced it was time to “come play with Doctor Feelgood”


That was when the first set of pyro went off shaking my pregnant wife next to me. Again, I asked if she was alright, she yes, she was fine. And with that Motley raged into a loud a furious Kickstart My Heart!

Tommy had started the drum beat (at first he was the only one on stage) then with another loud expostion the rest of the guys came flying out of the ground and onto the stage. Once again, I was in sensory overload.

The set list went on like this:

Red Hot

Rattlesnake Shake

Too Young to Fall In Love

Shout At The Devil

Live Wire

Same Ol’ Situation

Slice Of You Pie

Enough to take me back to that first show, while plenty of new to make it a different experience. I definitely think the performance of Live Wire was once again, the song of the night. Get use to me saying that.

Mick then did a guitar solo. It was a slide guitar where he broke into parts of Without You, a song from the new album they did not do that night. But it made its way into the solo, and Mick is a guitar god!

Tommy’s drum solo was next, and if I thought his first one was cool, if I thought what he did on the Girl, Girls, Girls tour was incredible, I was in for a shock.

Tommy started to beat on that kit like no one else can and as he did so his drum set began to rise into the sky, high into the sky. Once it had risen to the top of the arena he stopped bangin’ on the drum long enough to say this:

“You know, people are always asking me how I’m gonna top my last drum solo on the “Girls” tour”, I’m paraphrasing, remember this was 25 years ago, “And they keep asking ‘what are you gonna do, how can you top it?’ and I tell them… this!”
And with that his drum set started moving along a track across the top of the arena ceiling. As it moved from the front of the arena to the back, Tommy played the drum part of other bands, songs from Kiss, Van Halen, Queen, etc. All the great anthems and the crowd below him sang each song out for him.

Once again, this was like nothing I had ever seen before and by the time he reached the back (right above where we sat) I was again up on the highest clouds. This was just too amazing, it had to be the coolest thing I had ever seen. Tommy stopped playing again and stood up leaning over the edge of his drum platform, hanging right there in front of all of us way at the back of this big arena. He leaned over, took a big breath, and said, “Now I’m back here with all of you with the good weed!”

The place went crazy! He sat back down playing more drum beats from crowd favorites, everyone singing all the words as the drum set made its way across the sky, back to the front of the Forum. Once there he jumped from the set, falling towards the crowd below, only to bounce back up from an attached bungee cord. Again, the place went crazy.

I looked at my wife and she to was enjoying the show. And as the rest of the songs played out she was singing along with everyone else in the place.

The set list continued on:

Looks That Kill

Smokin’ In The Boys Room

Wild Side

Girls, Girls, Girls

Home Sweet Home

Dr. Feelgood

Jailhouse Rock

Now, although my wife kept saying she was fine, and seemed to be having a good time, I could tell that each pyro explosion had an effect on her, and there were lots of them. So I have to admit, I was relieved when the Elvis Presley cover started, I knew that would be the last song, so I turned to my wife and said, we should head out to get ahead of everyone. “That’s a good idea,” she said smiling but not quite genuinely, “I’m in labor.”

We have to take a step back 3 years to when I was 16 and in the delivery room waiting for my first child to be born. We were at the hospital for about 24 hours before my daughter finally came. It was scary, I was a kid, and the experience was the most confusing, magical experience of my life. I was a little older but the moment my wife said those words, “I’m in labor” confusion and magic all over again.

As we raced to are car, I questioned her, “are you serious?”, “why didn’t you say anything?” She didn’t really answer, she just gave me a look. “I’ve been in labor since I woke up, this morning.” I knew those smiles were suspicious. Everyone at my house knew but didn’t say anything, not wanting to ruin the show. Really? Really?

Was I upset they didn’t tell me, or happy I got to go to the show?  I’m still not gonna try to answer that question, but at the time I was still full of adrenalin from the show and my mind was racing. We got to the car. My wife explains the reason she suggested the champagne toast was because she knew it would slow down the labor.

“How close are you?” I asked.

“Close,” she said. Now let me once again take us back 3 years, to our first-born. My wife, then girlfriend, had though it was time many times before it actually was. We were at the hospital twice before they actually admitted her the 3rd time, and as I said, after that we were still in the hospital for a 24 hour period before she gave birth. Luckily I wasn’t thinking about any of this, my mind was just trying to come to grips with everything, I was in shock of some sort, but I sprang into action.

As we drove out of the parking lot heading for the freeway, it began to rain. I looked over at my wife who was breathing heavily obviously going through a contraction. This was insane, I mean WTF?!?

I got us from L.A. to Covina in record time even with the rain. Went straight to my mom’s house. We rushed in, my wife was very calm, so I started to think everything was not as serious as that drive home-made it out to be. But once inside my mom timed the contractions and they were under 10 minutes apart. and they were getting stronger. So right back into the car we went and headed for the hospital.

Again I can’t stress enough how 3 years earlier everything to move so slowly, painfully slow at times. There was time to be scared, there was time to worry. Not this time.

We got to the hospital, were admitted, and in the elevator ride up to a room it was decided to go straight to the delivery room. During the elevator ride we told the nurses where we had just came from, they thought it was great, it was the first of many times that the story would be told, and we were the talk of the hospital. Not just because of the Motley Crue show, but it was now like two in the morning, Valentines Day, our first wedding anniversary.

My second child was born right after we got off that elevator and into the delivery room. the whole thing was such a blur. The feelings experienced that night are not easily put into words. I mean one moment I’m watching Motley Crue and the next I’m holding my daughter (yes, another girl). Beautiful and healthy and she had already been to her first concert.

Motley Crue!