Fuck The World For The Win

When I was a kid the initials F.T.W. meant “Fuck The World”.  I first saw them written on a bloody Nikki Sixx’s arm:

NikkiBloodFU

Once I found out what it meant I kind of took it on as my life’s motto. Fuck The World! It has a simple beauty to it. It served me well in my younger years, realizing early that you can’t change the world or the ways of those who walk it gives you a certain relief and freedom. But as you get older it get’s harder to just say fuck everybody. Now I know this may not be the way it works for everyone, after all there are no absolutes. For some, I’m guessing, it get’s easier to say “fuck the world” the older you get.

Yes, the older you get, the closer you feel to being done with it all. You’ve seen how people can be and experienced the cruel ways of the world… so as each year passes you become a little more cynical and less able to fake that smile as the people around you do their best to screw you. I can totally get that. But as I said it worked in reverse for me.

At a young age I realized the world was full of shit. They all pretended they had answers, and as a child you believe it. But teachers, preachers, and politicians are the great pretenders. Every adult, right up to and including your parents are winging it, not much different as we all do as children. Going with what is told to you, following what everyone else is doing. The idea that adults have any answers or real understanding to what all this is about, like Santa Claus is a nice lie told to children to sooth and reassure them… but it’s still a lie.

No need to get too deep in all this… but for me, I saw through the lie early and with that knowledge I ran with it.

“Fuck the world!” You can’t please everyone, and why would you try when we are all in the same boat, right? No one is better than the next, just a world of people playing pretend from birth to death.

Simply put (is anything ever “simply put” here?), instead of growing more cynical as I grew older I started to realize it was a little more complicated than the simple way I had been looking at it (see, simple, right?).

Having children is definitely part of it. When you have kids (for most at least) you have to give a fuck about something more than yourself. You have to start caring about the future and the way the world is, even if it seems so unworthy of your cares.

Children are only part of it though. For good or bad everyone you come in contact with is a part of your world.  All those around you shape and mold you and are essentially, your life. And in return we are the lives of those around us. We all fit in like puzzle pieces, affecting and being affected.

So from my earliest childhood friends to those of you I have met here on the blog. From my parents to my siblings. From my wife to my children. The people I’ve worked with and those who worked against me. You are my life and make all this what it is… so you can’t just say fuck all that… you might as well be saying fuck your life, and though some may feel just that… I do not.

Heavy, I know. But we can’t get stuck in the depth, we could drown. So let’s just leave it at this:

As I got older, “Fuck The World” became less of a motto and more of just a mood I sometimes was in. If you have read here long enough, you’ve seen me in that mood a few times for sure.

The world, whether you say fuck it or not moves on and so shall this post.

When I first started blogging on WordPress, I had used the initials F.T.W. a few times and there seemed to be a confusion about what I meant (this also happened more recently with the initials S.S.D.D. Which I promise will be dealt with in the next post). So I did some Googling and sure enough the meaning of F.T.W. had changed as the world moved on:

FTW for the win.jpg

At first this kind of upset me. My motto turned mood had become something else. I blame the internet. LMFAO! But really, as I have said over and over again, the internet changed a lot of things. I worked at a video rental store, was actually a manager for a place called The Video Studio in Covina, California (I am mainly mentioning it so I can put it in the tags. I loved working there and who knows, someone might Google it and find this post. That would be cool, right?). I also worked at a few record stores, Sam Goody, The Warehouse,  and of course Tower Records. I really thought Tower Records would be the job I kept for ever. But just like F.T.W. the internet has changed things.

I know… poor zero. My love/hate relationship with the internet is a moot point though really. It too is part of my life (it’s up there in the title, RL and IL… the L stands for life). The internet is much a part of my life as everything else that has been a part of it over these last four decades (has it really been that long?) as it has been for most of us working are way through it. So I just had to accept, that while F.T.W. will always mean “Fuck The World” to me, for others it now meant “For The Win”!

If you think about it, it makes sense. And it actually seems to be a positive move, right? “For The Win” seems much more positive than “Fuck The World”, right?

If you say so. It does fit right into the world in which we find ourselves in now. Helping pave the way for  Donald Trump to become President. It seems to become all about winning now. Which of course, it’s become that way because we had tried to pretend for a while that winning didn’t matter. It obviously does. Participation trophies are great, but we want the win.

Let’s not start drowning in the depth again. This post is not gonna debate winners and losers, but I will say it sucks to lose, we all know that, still… “the devil loves the winner just as much as he loves the sinner”. That’s from a lyric I once wrote. Perceive at your own risk.

Winners, losers, we all get a taste of both from time to time, it’s no mystery why people prefer to win. Shall we move on?

When I first learned of “For The Win” and I mourned the loss of “Fuck The World”, I saw a third phrase (of course there was a third one, everything comes in threes). It was something I had known of since those early days of understanding, something out there like a sickness… growing, infecting. I just now had a name for it, and all I had to do was put it together. Literally.

F.T.W.F.T.W

Fuck The World For The Win.

Go ahead, say it out loud. Think about what it implies. Some of you probably don’t even have to continue reading… but please do.

From the first time I read Book of Revelation at the age of 13, I understood it, or at least how people perceived it.  I now had a name for it.

Fuck The World For The Win.

I guess the best way to explain it for those of you who don’t yet get where I’m going, is to take a look at the terrorism spreading the past 4 decades (my entire life!) from the ideas of Radical Islam. The word Jihad is just a short way of saying, “Fuck the world for the win”. But it isn’t just in the Islamic religion. It’s an idea that flows through many of our worlds religious teachings. The idea that one day the world will end and judgment and salvation will be dealt out respectfully. Everyone has their own version of an Apocalypse awaiting all of us.

See where I’m going yet?

We all have beliefs. We all have philosophies and religious convictions. Traditions passed down from a time we can only read about. Necessary, but dangerous. Necessary because we build our lives upon these beliefs and convictions. Dangerous because people want to be right. They want to win.

So think about it, where does it leave us. I know you can figure it out, you don’t need me to make it clear… just in case though…

There are so many out there who have been taught and believe their way is right and that some day it will all come to an end to punish and reward, again, dealt out respectfully  to each persons own perspective. How do we expect any real self thinking individual to know which way to turn or react. Yes, so many out there who believe the end is coming and see no reason to try to prevent it. In fact, those who truly believe find ways to try to get to that end and prove they were right all along.

Now you see what I’m getting at, yes?

People will destroy it all to be right. Fuck The World For The Win!

I should point out that from the beginning of time people though the end was near. When the Book Of Revelation was written the early Christians believed the end of the world would come in their life time. In fact everyone generation thinks there’s will be the last. The end is always near. To me that proves just how wrong of an idea it is. If you keep expecting the end to come and it doesn’t, when do you finally give up on that idea?

Just in our recent history we can discuss the lunacy of Y2K or 12-21-2012. But people believed it. Shit, we wanted it. People believe the end has to come, so we race for it. After all, the end will prove who is right and who is wrong. and that’s what we really need… to be right, at any cost.

Like most things, it’s all backwards to me. The end of the world seems to be something we’d be happy to be wrong about. And yet so many say, “Fuck The World For The Win”.

And here we are, destroying everything for the sake of an argument that doesn’t really involve us.

Do ya feel me? Can you dig? Or am I the one who’s crazy?

Maybe I am. Because so much of this seems so easy to see and yet we close our eyes and march on towards a destiny we believe was already decided for us.

Damn, I was trying to keep this under 2,000 words, but don’t know if that’s gonna happen. Let’s try to bring this to a conclusion leading into another post (get ready, because from here on out they are gonna fall like dominoes).

I never got a Father’s Day post out this month, lately it’s just been hard to find a reason to come here and write. So that leaves this blog with no Father’s Day post in the 4 years I wrote here. That kind of sucks. After all I’m a father. There is plenty of material for me to write about on the subject. Did it seem like we just took a sharp turn and are heading a different direction? What does Father’s Day have to do with this post? How about a Spiderman reference about paying for the “sins of our fathers”.  Or how many think of that father figure up their in the heavens watching and judging us.  Or how most of us grow up with out our fathers.  I could blog about my own dad. Talk about how untill the 3rd grade my dad was a huge part of my life. Then he was just not there anymore and that’s just how it was. After all I was just a child and the adults knew what they were doing, ha! I could also write about how I’d later go to live with my dad when I was 15 years old and how odd the whole thing was, and get into the different kind of relationship I had with my dad then. Because in between the time I had last seen my dad at age 8 and the time he was back in my life at 15 I had figured out that truth about adults: they didn’t have a clue.

There we go, getting back on topic. Forgive me though, because I’m gonna jump right back off.

Last year around this time I wrote this post:

https://zerodinh.wordpress.com/2016/06/13/when-will-it-be-enough/

As you can read in the post, I had started out wanting to write a post about how no matter how bad the world seemed, that it was up to us to paint our lives with the colors we wanted in them. How what seemed like an upcoming Summer of Fear could easily be turned into a Summer of Love if we wanted to. But the tragedy of Pulse Nightclub rocked us all and the post ended up being a confusional attempt at the realization that it wasn’t so easy to do any more.

A year later and the only difference is I’m not confused. From the moment I hit the “Publish” button on that post to the time I hit “Publish” on this post it has been made all to clear to me the fear has won out.  The Summer of 2016 continued to show that path leading us here. One tragedy after the next backing us all into a corner. Need a personal example to demonstrate exactly what I mean? Of course you do:

Last week I woke up to this song on the news:

This song was new to me… I had just heard it for the first time a few days earlier… I’ll get to that in a moment. The reason it was being played on the news was because Rachel Platten had released an acoustic version of the track to benefit the victims of the nightclub shootings:

Rachel Platten releases new version of ‘Fight Song’ to benefit Orlando victims

So here I was coming out of sleep to this song that was recently familiar to me. It’s a beautiful song and it is easy to see why it would be used as an anthem for standing up against the forces in the world waiting to strike out against us. An uplifting tribute to the human spirit and our choice to stand and face our obstacles. Yes, from bullies to terrorist, the song fits into the narrative we all find ourselves trapped in. A cry out that we will fight.

So it may not come to a surprise that the place I had first heard the song a few days earlier was at my 5th graders graduation ceremony. I had seen and heard a group of children sing it loud and proud as they looked to the uncertainty of middle school.

A couple of quick side notes on all this:

First, my granddaughter (who is still a few years off from her own 5th grade graduation) was with us that day and was reading over the program with me. She saw the name Rachel Platten written in it next to the song title and her eyes lit up. She of course knew the song and liked it quite a bit. She easily sang along once the 5th graders began singing it. As I have said, I had not heard of the song before… I am getting old.

Second, right now, as I copied the song to post it above, it began to play on my laptop. My soon to be 6th grader came running in and sang a duet with Rachel Platten… it was very adorable.

As I said, it’s understandable why this song would be chosen for the 5th grade graduation ceremony, but the song chosen to accompany it is where all this starts messing with my head a little:

I know, right?

Yes, it was very cute. Watching those up and coming adults belt out, “I’m proud to be an American”, was very inspirational…. but in context, well my context at least, it all seemed to be pushing and pulling. Not to mention there was a representative there from both the Republicans and Democrats pointing out how important it was to vote. A message for the parents I’m guessing, since these graduates wouldn’t be voting for quite a few years yet. The whole thing seemed to be getting us all ready for the fight, though that may be a little bit much. But it definitely was sending the message that we will stand strong and proud against all that tries to defeat us. Which again, fits into the narrative we all find ourselves trapped in.

If it seems like I’m getting side tracked, that’s partially because this is 3 posts wrapped up into one. The Father’s Day post I didn’t get to, bled in a little. A post that developed in my head the morning I woke up to “Fight Song” on the news, which I did actually start writing but didn’t get very far. And a 3rd post which is long over due, the one titled “Fuck The World For The Win”.  It’s been in my head for a while now and I had to get it out to move on. The funny thing is, it was meant to be like this… the reason I couldn’t write the “Fight Song” post a few days ago was because it belonged here. These two ideas were locked together in a deadly embrace.

You see, as I said in the Summer post a year ago, the choice between a Summer of love or a Summer of fear may just as well have been made for us. I defiantly believe so as a new summer is here. And it’s not our fault. We have to stand up to these fears in order to get past them. We have to fight for what is right. Corny but true.

Here’s the rub though… and it’s a dangerous one. When we all feel backed into a corner and everyone feels the time has come to say enough is enough. Those out there waiting for the end get a twinkle in their eyes. This is a sign that they are right. And they see the way to victory. They see a way to fuck the world for the win.

Hell, I ain’t saying nothing most of you don’t feel deep inside. You get how it all works. And like I said, the world keeps going on no mater how many try to bring on the end. Still if we keep trying and that lovable, dreadful internet keeps fueling the FTWFTW, who knows.

LOL, now I’m right there with every other generation who thinks that Armageddon is for their generation. And maybe it will be.

To be honest, it don’t matter. Because that’s not the point of this post.

As I have said many times before, the longer I stay away from writing here the easier it is to not write here. And as we all know, I plan on ending the blog at the end of the year. Which is why sometimes with all that’s going on in the world, I wonder why bother even finishing.

But I can’t do that. That wouldn’t be fair to any of us. We’ve come a long way and we can’t stop now. We’ve got a graduation to get to.

So buckle up once again as we head down one last bumpy road together. The whole fucking world can come crashing down along the side of us, this blog is marching right on down to the end. Whether you say Fuck The World or For The Win… even you sick fucks that say Fuck The World For The Win (I know there’s a few of you out there reading) it don’t matter…

 

“Fa shizzel, my wizzel, this is the plot, listen up
You bizzels forgot, Slizzel does not give a fuck”

3 Of The Best Albums Of 2016

#Three

First let me say, the title reads “3 Of The Best” not “The 3 Best”. So don’t give me any grief about there being better albums last year, maybe there were. I’ve yet to hear the new Sixx A.M. album (hoping to get it for Christmas) and I’m sure  that will be at the top of my list. Also not everyone has the same taste in music… Dorothy obviously hates my taste in music… too angry for her. Still these 3 albums will be hard to beat in my opinion.

So a little while back Sassy (for new readers: that’s my wife), came home and told me she got me a present. Before she had went out I had mentioned I needed to head to the record store because there several new albums out I needed to pick up, so I knew she got me an album.

I sat there all excited as she reached in to a bag and pulled out the new Blink 182 CD. Fuck yea!  I had really been waiting for that one. Then she said, “Wait, there’s more”.  And she reached in and pulled out the new Green Day CD. Sweet! Another one I wanted! But she wasn’t done… she reached in and pulled out a third CD (my baby knows me so well), Weezer! Oh hell yea! 3 new CDs from 3 of my favorite bands. I was set!

And can I tell you they did not disappoint. All three albums kick ass and show just why these 3 bands are 3 of the best still out there making albums.

Since I have been listening to them over and over for the past few months I thought I’d go over them all for all of you.

You’re welcome. LOL.

So as I have said before, “The Music Album” is one of the many things that has been screwed up by the internet. Music is now made in single tracks to be collected off YouTube  or other such places. Don’t get me wrong, radio always made sure the single was an important part of music. Many people bought albums for just one song they heard off the radio and I can tell you from experience of working at record stores in the 90’s that lots of people went looking for the “cassette single” never realizing how good the whole album was and therefore missing out on great songs. A good example of this is Offspring’s “Come Out And Play”. Everyone came in looking for that single not realizing how great an album “Smash” was/is.  I was always a whole album kind of guy. I liked (still like) to put the album on, listen to it from beginning to end and see where the artist can take me. But the internet killed the album all together. Now there aren’t many albums being made that are worth buying… the single has found its true home on the internet. songs are made for the download numbers… and albums on a whole seem to be less important… or not important at all.

And this is why I was so glad these 3 albums were ALBUMS. I can put them on and off I went. It definitely helped that California was a running theme on a few of them. You know I love my California. Which brings us to the first album, Blink 182: California:

blin-182

I heard the first single, “She’s Out Of Her Mind” on the radio. And I like it, but it sounded like a younger Blink 182, and I was afraid the album would try to hard to be like they are still a high school pop-punk band instead of the growing sound that they had matured into with each album. Plus I felt the song was missing Tom. I think that was my worst fear, that without Tom it just wouldn’t sound like Blink 182. I mean other than Boxcar Racer, I wasnt a big fan of their solo stuff. I like Mark and Tom harmonizing together with Travis pounding away on the drums. The 3 of them together made the sound of Blink 182 (I know Travis wasn’t there for the early albums, and I do love those albums too maybe even more… but for argument’s sake and the sake of this blog, the 3 of them make the sound).

I was worried for nothing, the album works on all aspects for me. It sounds great, lyrics are good, and the concept well, California… it don’t get any better.

Here;s a track list. The whole album is great, but I put 3 stars next to my favorite tracks:

1.*** “Cynical” 1:55
2. Bored to Death 3:55
3.** She’s Out of Her Mind 2:42
4.*** “Los Angeles” 3:03
5. “Sober”
2:59
6. “Built This Pool” 0:16
7.*** “No Future” 3:45
8.*** “Home Is Such a Lonely Place”
3:21
9.*** “Kings of the Weekend”
  • Hoppus
  • Barker
  • Skiba
  • Feldmann
  • Hodges
2:56
10. “Teenage Satellites”
  • Hoppus
  • Barker
  • Skiba
  • Feldmann
  • Hodges
3:11
11. “Left Alone” 3:09
12.*** “Rabbit Hole” 2:35
13.*** “San Diego”
  • Hoppus
  • Barker
  • Skiba
  • Feldmann
  • Stump
3:12
14. “The Only Thing That Matters” 1:57
15.*** “California”
3:10
16. “Brohemian Rhapsody” 0:30

With song titles like “Los Angles”,  “San Diego”. and “California” how can you not love it? I will admit, there are quite a few songs where I wish I could have heard with Tom, but even the single grew on me. In all honesty this album is the best to expect from Blink 182 after all these years, meaning it stands up with all the rest. With or without Tom.

I’m gonna play one song from each album (so we end up with 3 songs… duh). The one I chose from this album needs no explanation:

Now on to Green Day’s Revolution Radio:

green-day

1. “Somewhere Now” 4:08
2. Bang Bang 3:25
3. *** “Revolution Radio” 3:00
4.*** “Say Goodbye” 3:39
5.*** “Outlaws” 5:02
6. “Bouncing Off the Wall” 2:40
7.*** Still Breathing 3:44
8.*** “Youngblood” 2:32
9. “Too Dumb to Die” 3:23
10. “Troubled Times” 3:04
11.*** “Forever Now”

  • I. “I’m Freaking Out”
  • II. “A Better Way to Die”
  • III. “Somewhere (Reprise)”
6:52

  • 1:57
  • 1:47
  • 3:08
12. “Ordinary World” (lyrics and music by Billie Joe Armstrong) 3:00

If you like Green Day you should like this album. It’s a little like the rock opera’s American Idiot and 21st Century Breakdown. Though I found it more like their last 3 albums ¡Uno!¡Dos!, and ¡Tré! Point is, it’s all Green Day. The other 2 albums were easier to choose what songs to play. This one I had I debated on. I decided on the song that sounded the least like Green Day. I kept finding myself coming back to it. I get a lot from this song. I hope some of you will as well:

I saved the best for last. The new self titled Weezer album.

Weezer had made 3 other self titled albums. Each one would become known by the color of the album cover. Blue, Green, and Red. Each of these are fucking awesome. Blue and Red are masterpieces and 2 of my favorite albums. The color of this album (the band on the beach, so you know where this is going) is mostly white, therefore earning the name White Album.  Which just happens to be the name of one of the biggest masterpieces of all time.So this album had a lot to live up to:

weezer

My favorite place! Let’s look at the track list:

1.*** “California Kids” Rivers Cuomo, Dan Wilson 3:25
2.*** “Wind in Our Sail” Cuomo, Scott Chesak, Ryan Spraker 2:53
3.*** Thank God for Girls Cuomo, Alex Goose, Michael Balzer, Alex Balzer, Bill Petti 3:30
4.*** “(Girl We Got A) Good Thing” Cuomo 3:25
5.*** Do You Wanna Get High? Cuomo 3:27
6.*** King of the World Cuomo, Jarrad Kritzstein 3:24
7.*** “Summer Elaine and Drunk Dori” Cuomo 3:25
8.*** “L.A. Girlz” Cuomo, Brian Bell, Luther Russell 3:29
9.*** “Jacked Up” Cuomo, Jonathan Coffer, Hugh Pescod 2:53
10.*** “Endless Bummer” Cuomo, Bell, Russell 4:14

I’m not saying this album should be compared to the other White Album. I’m not even saying it’s the best Weezer album (though it’s up there). All I’m saying is as soon as I heard that first song, I was hooked. And the rest of the album took me on a journey that only the best albums can do. This album made me want to write this post.

Before I leave you with that opening track, let me just say, I was once a “California Kid”and this song gets put on repeat a lot! I’ll always be a Californian, and I know Vegas isn’t that far from my true home… but sometimes the desert seems like the furthest place from those California beaches I grew up on. As for the kid thing… I know I’m a long way from there, but I’ll always be a kid at heart.

At the end of the day (have I ever mentioned how much I hate when people say that) if we all find ourselves on a sinking ship… head to California… I’ll meet you at the beach… I’ll show ya the sunshine.

AUTHORS NOTE: this Weezer video is actually the third of a somewhat trilogy. To see the other 2 videos, go to the ZW Facebook.

https://www.facebook.com/zerosworld/

Winter Storm Warning

That’s what it says on my phone. Weather channel says the same thing. Let’s take a look on the Net:

http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/capital-weather-gang/wp/2014/12/29/uncommon-phenomenon-las-vegas-bets-on-new-years-eve-snow-storm/

OH sh@t! It’s true! Snow!!!

That’s sooo cool, but also very scary and dangerous!  New Years visitors are in for a surprise… and that trip down the 15 for Californians will be much more difficult then the usual sometime parking lot, stop and go trip. In fact if it is as bad as they say, that trip may not be possible after tonight…

We shall see!

New Years Eve 2014 Snow Watch In Vegas… begins now!

 

Cleaning Out My Blog’s Closet

A little while back I shared a peek at all the posts still stick in draft mode. There was 7 of them. And if we take a look at it again:

Posts

We can see that one was posted and two more joined the drafts. Leaving us with 8 stuck in limbo. And as I said before, this does not include all the posts still in my head that haven’t even make it to draft mode.

Add that to the posts that are now pulled for one reason or another and need to be adjusted or deleted. (Just playing, nothing get’s deleted)

I really need to clean things up around here so that we can continue on.

There are things that keep me from doing this, such as the season, which is rapidly approaching Fall, and we all know what that means. Well Dorothy does, she can’t stop trying to connect Fright Dome to all this…  if that doesn’t show everyone the depths of stupidity these people have gone to, I don’t know what will. But I will continue to try.

Also I have been contacted lately by more people who seem to have input in this. Which means I have to spend days making sure who I’m talking to isn’t someone I’ve already been talking to, just changing up their story, lol. Yes, if I was to just put everything out there, from beginning to end, emails and all. All the things I’ve done to verify or not verify something told to me, I think most of you would have a better appreciation for this blog. But I say again… those of you reading… those of you who have contacted me and asked to be left out of it, due again, to the depths of stupidity the likes of Dorothy and friends will go to, think about it, if I’ve talked to you and kept you out of the posts, there really could be others as well, right?

A little shout out to all of you I have talked to and have kept your name out of it.

And all you others I do mention… yea… I know some of you think it is ONLY you I blog about… but read back… lots of people are mentioned… and most of us have had quite a bit of contact. Mostly IM’s and emails… but a few phone calls and all the social media and blog correspondence… yea, go google your name… we are forever connected!

So, I’m gonna clean things up around here, and then get back to the grindstone.

Hopefully I will get to most if not all those posts left in draft mode.  Also  by the end of this year I’d like to look again at some of the posts here, like the Cicada stuff and Lake City Quiet Pills posts… because even though it may seem I get stuck on some of these people, I’m constantly looking into other things, my head likes to soak a lot up. I spent days reading into what happened in California  a couple months ago:

http://www.nydailynews.com/news/crime/deranged-santa-barbara-california-killer-tied-premeditated-youtube-video-reports-article-1.1804354

I have read Elliot Rodger’s manifesto, and I really wanted to blog about this whole story. But it would be lots of posts I don’t have time for right now. If you haven’t read about it, I suggest you hit that google up.

Then there’s all the latest news in Suffolk County. We could spend days discussing it, I’m sure.

http://www.newsday.com/long-island/suffolk/nicholas-macqueen-identified-as-man-found-dead-outside-patchogue-church-police-say-1.8605058

http://www.newsday.com/long-island/suffolk/sarah-goode-s-friends-ask-her-killer-to-surrender-1.8446669

http://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/cops-search-long-islands-gilgo-beach-after-butchered-body-found-n151786

http://www.newsday.com/long-island/source-body-parts-found-in-hempstead-might-be-connected-to-body-found-in-bay-shore-1.8747331

Plus there’s still lots of Real Life stuff I’d love to get into.  Fright Dome going to Hong Kong this year! That’s huge right now in my life, but bringing it up gives the “Team” stuff to misconstrue. Or how about how I worked as an extra in the movie Mall Cop 2 last month! I’d love to blog about that. But then all of a sudden, Dorothy would be calling Kevin James a Satanist with ties to JB (take your pick of JBs).  Just look at some of the stuff they recently are mixing up:

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Nancy likes to go on and on that I or we went looking for her. Most of you out there who have had to deal with Nancy know all about how she likes to play this game. She comes to your blog or Facebook Page, she starts posting crazy crap, you look into her to see who the hell this crazy lady is, you call her out or try to explain reality to her and blam, you are stalking her (sounds familiar, but hell, I could just name this blog Deja Vu with all the circles we get stuck in  here).

I started writing about all this back in February of 2013, I didn’t start this blog till almost a year later, on New Years Eve of that year. And it wasn’t tell right about that time I first found out about Nancy and the crazy Figats. Anyone reading here for a while knows that, and anyone wanting to go back and read the comments could see that. But I’ll help you out… here’s the first comment from Nan Nan from my LISK Blog on 1-1-14:

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I don’t know why I bothered to remove the end of the IP and Email address. She no longer uses this IP and she puts her email out with every comment she makes now.  Still it’s the little things that keep me from being them…

Now there we have the reason Nancy came to my LISK blog. I wasn’t fast enough letting through one of Dorothy’s tedious comments, so she sent Nan Nan my way. She was using the screen name “Just Wondering”… but that quickly changed:

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The last comment there tells us Dorothy had already filled Nancy in about me and my blog. And what kind of lies was Dorothy telling her? Well as we see with the first “put it in your pipe” comment, Nancy had her own ideas already of who I and everyone commenting on my blogs was:

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Back then I was like WTF?!? But with hindsight, it all fits together. Sure, it’s like they took pieces from all sorts of puzzles and jammed them together and the picture is all wrong… but still you can see the pieces being laid if you follow closely. And I have followed closely!

Now Nancy’s first comment on this blog was this:

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Her she tells us why she followed over to my new blog maybe? It’s not always easy to tell what Nancy is talking about… but I have become very good at understanding Nan Nan Speak.

So there you have it… Dorothy sent Nancy to create havoc on my blogs. Now in Nancy’s World (yes Nancy we all have a world, I know this) she thinks Dorothy is also her ex and there for even though Dorothy sent her here, she still thinks it’s Mike taunting her.

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That’s the first of many times Nancy has said Dorothy is part of my psyche (I’d put a bullet in my head, just saying), part of Mike’s psyche. I’ve gone back and forth on whether or not nancy really believes this, and I now have come to believe she does. I feel she really does think Dorothy is the part of her ex that is gonna apologise for all Mike has done to her, and in a way she does. Meanwhile anyone else who tries to get through to Nancy with truth must be working with her ex husband or just another part of his psyche that is not as nice as Dorothy. Which is why what Dorothy is doing to Nancy is so evil. Dorothy knows all these politicians are not the same person, that her ex husband is not Jeff MacDonald  or The Zodiac Killer, but Dorothy doesn’t care how much damage she does to Nancy, as long as she can use her to speak out against those who have called her (Dorothy) out.

But I’ve said all this, and will again… so let’s move on.

Dorothy likes to post that I give out misinformation, Cristin says this a lot too, but they can give no examples… yet they use misinformation to make it look like I spread misinformation. Dorothy says I have said I own Fright Dome… I have never said this. In fact I have now overstated how untrue this statement is. I am just an actor during the month of October, the rest of the year I’m free to do all sorts of other things, why not try to find some of them to lie about… I gave you Fright Dome.

Then there is the statements about where I have lived… Dorothy says I said I lived in Nebraska… yet I’ have never said such a thing… why? Because I never have. As I have said before I was born and raised in California. I lived in Rochester New York for less than a year when I was about 8 years old. But the rest of my childhood was spent in California, some of my adulthood as well. I moved to Las Vegas in 1994. I’ve said most of this before, I haven’t however given a complete listing of everywhere I lived, and because of that Dorothy says I’m giving misinformation, take a look:

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Yes, I have lived in Henderson and yes, until recently I had not mentioned this. Not till Henderson started popping up in their comments. I am little tired of looking through all of the comments and post at the moment (if you could only see how much I must wade through to make a post like this, luckily most of this stuff is recent posts), but I know Dorothy mentioned Henderson at least once before and I blogged about it some where or mentioned it in a comment when I saw it.  then recently Nancy posted some pictures she claims is in Henderson Nevada, so I once again commented that I once lived in Henderson. That’s why Dorothy made the above comment about not knowing I had lived in Henderson, although I said it long ago when Dorothy first brought it up. But I’m not gonna get in an argument whether or not they found out I had lived in Henderson at one time (maybe they found it on their own, or some others digging up so much info on me passed it on) and that is why they started bringing it up, in my heart I know that’s what happened, but again, I’m not gonna argue about it, maybe it’s mere coincidence they like to bring up Henderson, Nevada. I am however gonna bring up the argument, that just because I don’t right away say that I once lived in Henderson, and then one day I do say it, does not equal misinformation. But trying to say that Henderson Nevada is anywhere near Reno is. Henderson is like a 10 hour drive from Reno. It’s about the same distance from Reno as Las Vegas is. Why? Because Henderson is a suburb next to Vegas, in fact most people consider it Vegas, which is why I never differentiate. So no… no connections to Reno… and those pics Nancy posted of Henderson:

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Sorry, but that ain’t Henderson, Nevada. Dorothy and Nancy are under the assumption Henderson is in northern Nevada for some reason. But no mater how mixed up their MISINFORMATION gets, they can’t change geography, anymore then they can make me a devil worshiping child pornographer just by posting it in a comment.

I know, I know… for a blog that keeps saying it’s done explaining and apologising, it sure does have a lot of explanation and apology posts. I’m sure many of you just wish I would just blog already.

Well, I’m gonna do some tidying up around here…

and then I’m gonna get to some blogging!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Will The Real Zero Please Stand Up

After writing that first Dorothy Propaganda post… I realized Dorothy had made some more posts on the Zero’s World Facebook. If you went to read there today, you probably saw them too. But since I have a feeling they will be disappearing soon, (plus most of you can’t see her FB posts, I covered that enough right?)  here they are:

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Linda is who she says she is. Others besides me could vouch for her if needed, but it’s not needed here. She is who she says she is. Just ask your old friend Jen. As for the language, that’s something I will be addressing later. Some of you constantly complain about the language, but have no problem saying some fucked up things yourselves. But as I said, I’ll get to that later, it deserves its own post. Back to DPH’s assault on ZW’s FB:

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I love her comment there. Can never get enough people praying for you, especially when I have so much anger.  But then she posted something that contradicted something she already wrote (I say that like it never happens…lol):

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I just asked you if you, Dorothy had had lunch with Nancy like she said you did. Remember?

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If you had said yes, I’d have no reason not to believe it happened. I think you 2 should do lunch together! But you said no, and now you sound like, “maybe we did”. Lies always lead to contradictions… IMO.

So then she questions me and my motives, once again:

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I could hit hard here and ask if your life was so good, Dorothy why’d your real parents give you up? Or how bout what happened to you sisters? Hell, your whole life is a sob story after another… but let’s just say, you life is and has always been golden, most places have bad things happen in them… turn on the news, my point was, not everyone who grow up in hard times becomes an evil master mind criminal. If you disagree Dorothy, well who cares, won’t make you right.

Now as for all the questions about me… my identity is not important, so stop chasing it. Whether I’m Richie, Alan, Jim, Stu, or any one else you have dug up and anyone you WILL dig up on the internet, it doesn’t really matter… I have no role in any murders or conspiracy. I have no connections to anyone in New York or Florida for that matter. I am not gonna be phased by lies you come up with or stories you spin. Why? Because it’s not the truth you say I should demand. Just lies and stories.

But Dorothy did post something on SMG’s Memory FB today, that I do agree with:

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Although it was a cheap shot to drop another name, I x’d it out even though it’s out there on FB, because I still have not talked to the creator of LISK.com and might want to some day, no need to piss them off, lol. The comment she uses from the site is a good one though, and like I said, I agree with it! But Dorothy, you do realize, you are one of those people who claims to know what happened, you and your “buddies”.