Hawkshaw

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So now that you know, let’s take a closer look at Hawkshaw:

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Still get a kick from his new avatar. So if you didn’t already figure it out (and I’m pretty sure everyone has), Hawkshaw is Dorothy and Susie’s detective friend Pete F. Pete was once a cop and because of that he has become quite the little insider at Websleuths. Now I know some of you like Hawkshaw, (some like TKAMB just pretend to like him), but that maybe because you don’t know much about his other screen name Petefio. We will get to Petefio in a moment and maybe you might like Hawkshaw a little less… maybe.

First I want to get right to what I think is the root of why I believe Hawkshaw is not someone who should be so wrapped up in the LISK case. It’s comments like this:

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You see, to me comments like this make me think Hawkshaw doesn’t care who LISK really is, he just wants to see Burke go down for it. He doesn’t care if anyone makes the evidence”fit”, because Hawkshaw feels Burke has made evidence “fit” for so many others. And this is a feeling Hawkshaw has had for a very long time. Well maybe not as long as he has thought Spota was doing it. It wasn’t till Pete started hearing word that Burke was going down that Pete started in on James Burke. But Spota, Pete has been after him for a long time. Most of you probably know right where that started. Now I’m sure Pete (Hawkshaw) knows all about “bad” cops from his time as a cop himself, but Pete’s obsession with Spota really started after Pete was retired. As a detective Pete worked on  what he calls the SIL case. SIL stands for Son In Law. It seems Pete’s son-in-law (who also was a cop) got arrested for burglary and Pete felt he was set up:

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LOL, ‘he thinks he knows’, yea, Pete is a riot, as we are about to see. but first we really need to understand this SIL stuff. You see Pete worked as a Detective on it using his knowledge of LE due to his time on the force. But to me this already shows where Pete steps on the lines to get where he wants to go. I get he wanted to help out his daughter’s husband, but him being the father-in-law and an ex-cop well, it leads to bias, in my opinion. The strange part is that even though Pete says his SIL was set up, sometimes I’m not so sure he feels this way:

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And I don’t think he cared:

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This is what I mean. Pete doesn’t seem to care about truth. There are to many biased feelings involved. Before we go on, you should hear from Pete all about what happened to his SIL:

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He leaves a much shorter version on Websleuths:

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But here is probably his fullest version of the whole story:

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There’s a lot there. I’m not even gonna waste time picking through it here to make a judgment on whether or not the SIL was set up. All we need to know, is Pete believes it, sometimes. And Pete has been getting into it with others online over these subjects for at least a decade now:

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And it goes on and on and on. Pete aka Petefio aka Hawkshaw makes sure to hit up anywhere and everywhere:

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I put that last one there because Pete actually includes Nancy’s son in his list of criminals.

Look Pete Hawkshaw has been talking for years. About his SIL, about Spota, about Burke, about the LISK case… in fact Pete goes on and on about all sorts of stuff. And some of the things he has said are pretty messed up, we will get to some of his worst in just a minute, but first I want to take a look at 3 of Pete’s different subjects that I found interesting. First is about David Bianco and the subject of cops that kill:

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Just a couple of things here. Pete points out cops can be killers and even super detective Hawkshaw can’t tell the good ones from the killers. Also Pete has a peculiar way of using the initials BJ. This next thread is about Pete being a “victim”:

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I’m not even sure what all that means… but Pete says he was a victim and Pete should know. The last subject I’m putting up is Vegas:

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So Pete likes to gamble. And he seems to prefer Vegas to Atlantic City. Well we will have to get together next time you are in town Pete. Oh, and I agree, I hate those tickets.

So, Pete is obsessed with Spota, Burke, and busting Long Island LE. We all see that right? But that doesn’t mean Burke ain’t a dirty cop. He is. And maybe Burke is connected to LISK in some way. If so, I think it should come out soon. My point is that Hawkshaw is obsessed and is looking for what he wants to find. And that seems to be what most people involved in the LISK case are doing. People want to prove Hackett did it. Others want to prove Hackett is innocent. People want to prove Burke did it. Others want to prove other wise. Everyone gets lost in what they want to prove or disprove and forget the object should be finding out what really happened.

You all can make your own judgement on Pete Hawkshaw. But let me point out he has worked with both Dorothy Price Hill and Susie S. That’s enough for me! Still, just to help tip that scale, let’s take a look at Pete’s most questionable comments (aren’t ya glad you looked into me for DPH, Petey?):

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WTF? Did Pete just say his cousin was a serial killer? Damn.

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That one’s just creepy!

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Pete using the term blumpkins! Gross! Flukeyou used “blumpkins” in one of his comments before. If you still haven’t googled it please do. It shouldn’t surprise anyone that Pete would use such a term, his humor is … well off:

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If you think those are bad, look at this:

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Yes, that one tells us all we need to know about Pete. Wal-marts, LMFAO!

Still say I’m wrong about old Hawkshaw? Well then you might like to hang out with him at Thee Rant:

http://theerant.yuku.com/topic/9432/I-GOT-PULLED-OVER-IN-SUFFOLK-YESTERDAY?page=1

It’s a place for ex-cops like Pete. And as you can see from this reply to Pete’s Wal-marts adventure, there are people just like Pete there:

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But put all this nuttiness aside and the main thing about Pete that worries me is how involved  he gets:

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I mean he gets way up in there like the other nuts and then he says things like this:

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Or this:

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And worse… something like this:

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Remember that? I do. Then you see something like this:

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Just one question. Why is anyone taking him seriously? And look, 9 years ago Pete talks about how he somehow fucked up the Zodiac and Son Of Sam case:

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Hawkshaw has been everywhere and I’ve gone on quite enough about him for now. I just wanted to get it all out at once so we can continue moving on. Before we go, let’s go way back and see what Pete was like almost 20 years ago:

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It sure does seem like Pete was a little worried about Mayor Koch being gay. That’s funny to me, because I know some people make this a big deal:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/02/01/ed-koch-gay-lgbt-community-nyc-mayor_n_2600891.html

I get it, Pete thinks Koch was gay because he passed legislation that benefited the LGBTQ community. and that bothered him. Pete is worried a gay guy might try to pick him up. Gross! Fuck Hawkshaw! There, I said it. I’m done.

I’ll leave you all with Pete’s own words. I’m sure he won’t get the irony in them but I bet most of my readers will:

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When Will It Be Enough?

It’s been 2 months since my last post. I’ve been in a sort of stupor of sadness. After my last post another one of my heroes passed away. Prince was a major influence on my life since I was in grade school. I started to write a post about how he influenced my life and half way through I just stopped. I began to think about the blog and the things I was writing about. Started to once again wonder if I should have ever strayed from the “Red & Black” and onto the paths that led me to “Zero’s World”. I mean 2 of the biggest influences in my life, Bowie and Prince were gone, and I had failed to mention either one till after their untimely death. David Bowie and Prince were not just musical influences, they were huge influences on self-love and respect, individuality, and understanding and accepting… no… celebrating our differences. They were major parts of my very complicated life, and after 3 years of blogging I had not mentioned either until their death. What was I blogging about when Prince was takin’ from us? Some dick named Jason Edwards and the ongoing feuds of McKee, Prinnie, & Radio.

Had I lost my way?

What would the Zero of only a few years ago (the one who started his journey here at WordPress with the “Red & Black”) think, if he could see what he was blogging about now?

I’m the only one who can answer that, and yet I can’t. I’m not sure if I would have ever started blogging if I knew how it would affect me and the endless circles it would send me in. You see I’ve had issues with circles in the past, and my whole thought process when I wrote that first post, what seems like a lifetime ago, was to help others to see the circles we get stuck in and of course what I have said throughout all of this, understanding. If we try to understand each other and all we each are going through, the whys and hows, we could get to at least a common ground where moving forward instead of declining backwards was possible.

I know a lot of you are saying, “really you blogged about this stuff? I thought you just blogged about Dorothy and LISK obsessors.”

Well, maybe that’s my fault… I may have let the circles get the best of me. And yet, no matter how far I have strayed, circles never let you get far from where you begin.

So these last few months I have sat down to write a post quite a few times but unsure where to go with it for the moment. How to ride the circles. Because circles are not always bad things… like I have said before, they can be like rain drops on a pond… each circle growing bigger and bigger. Or think of the circles linked together in uncountable chains, each connecting to another as you trace them, leading you into all possibilities.

But they are dangerous, easy to get stuck in small circles that are very damaging. Or worse, they can break off into downward spirals.

Whoa… very “Red & Black” today. Sorry, I will try to get to the point, if there really is one any more, and I do still have hope that there is one. Maybe that’s the point. That I still have hope for one. I definitely think that’s what I thought was the point yesterday.

There were a few times I started to write a post over the past couple months. When I read the news about a man who had been with homeland security shot his estranged wife and many other innocent people in a 2 day shooting spree:

http://www.cnn.com/2016/05/06/us/maryland-shootings/index.html

I sat down to type, but nothing came. This guy was with Homeland Security!?! Once again there seems to be no lines between bad guys and good guys. Maybe that’s why I didn’t write a post.

There were other times I came to this screen wanting to put to words how I felt about all the things going on around me… when an Egypt Air  plane disappeared from the skies I once again sat at a blank screen wanting to say something but not really knowing the purpose of anything I could say. No matter what I said about it then, we’d still be at the same place now:

http://www.foxnews.com/world/2016/06/01/latest-french-firm-gets-signal-from-crashed-egypt-plane.html

Each time the argument about where people are allowed to use the restroom came up in the news and online I wanted to pound hard on my keyboard in all caps… but it wouldn’t have stopped the lunacy from growing as it did.

The thing about this blog is, the more I skip on planned posts and the more time I let pass between them… the easier it is not to blog at all.

For every thing I want to post about there are countless more things that I could be blogging about. Positive things, negative things, crazy things. The posts alone about this election would fill this already crowded blog. So again, what’s the point?
While posing the question to myself and getting stuck in a circle of sadness, I got some devastating news about someone very close to me.

Suddenly all the fucked upness of the world was hitting way too close.

It’s a good thing I wasn’t posting… because there would have been some dark stuff last week.

I really started to wonder if there was any hope for humanity. Are we stuck in circles or trapped in downward spirals so dangerous, there was no hope?

By the end of last week I still wasn’t sure where my head was on everything going on in the real world but I knew I wasn’t done in the Internet one. I had to write a post… about something… about anything, or it would just become to easy to let it go.

I thought long and hard this weekend, a good weekend spent with family and friends (my son had graduated from High School, that’s 6 down 1 to go) and thought hard about the world around me both close and distant. Yes, there was craziness and despair, but it was still beautiful to me. All of it had meaning… all of it had purpose, there was a point.

I decided to finally come back to the blog and post about a lot of what I just wrote, though more detailed in some areas (like more on Trump, Clinton, Bernie and the election) while not in others.

I planned the post in my head Saturday night as I went to sleep. I wasn’t sure whether I would call it “Summer Of Love” or “Summer Of Fear” but guessed it would be some sort of combination of both like “Summer Of Love Or Fear?” or “Summer Of?”. I had planned on using a couple of songs by Offspring:

I wanted to show the contrast of fellings, but I wanted to express the hope. I never know for sure how a post will go because things change as I write them, but I know I wanted to end positively and though it was a post about how fucked up things seem to be getting I wanted to express it was our Summer and if we wanted it to be a fun one regardless of all the shit we were going through, it could be. It was up to us to make this a Summer of Love and not a Summer of Fear.

Yesterday morning, I shook off all the doom and gloom and sat down to set it all back into a postive spin that could spin us into circles of hope. I also turned on the T.V.

The screen in front of me would remain blank once again.

The deadliest mass shooting in America’s history:

http://www.foxnews.com/us/2016/06/12/reaction-to-florida-nightclub-mass-shooting.html

http://www.cnn.com/2016/06/12/us/orlando-shooter-omar-mateen/index.html

Now what?

This is it. Maybe our final wake up call before it’s too late.

But that sounds a lot like fear.

It also sounds very real.

The choice of a summer of love vs. a summer of fear seems more important now than a silly post on a silly blog.

And I really don’t know which way it will go. I can’t even say what side I may find myself on.

This tragedy hits on so much, from gun control issues, mental illness and Islamic terrorism to the bigotry of all religions when it comes to the rights of the LGBTQ. But the fact remains that all these senseless things we do to each other is because we don’t care to understand each other.

I know there is still hope… most of the world wants to understand, accept, and live peacefully with each other. There is still love out there.

But is it time for us to seriously be afraid of  what may happen if we all don’t join together and fight against what is trying to destroy us…

or will that only insure our destruction?

The zero who first started blogging here on WordPress I’m sure would want us to fight the fear and embrace the love and hope for change.

That zero is gone though and I’m left more confused than ever and as I said, not sure where I will find myself.