Welcome Back

Alright, the ZW Blog has been back for almost a month and so far so good.

I was so torn about coming back. As we know this place is organic, so it didn’t die just because I stopped posting. The question is, where has it grown to over this past year? I’m not sure. I’m not even sure yet which direction we will go. But for better or worse we are seat-belted in once again.

So far it has been nice though. Three nuggets for the noggin in a row. Nothing to heavy and yet still things in there to take away from.

Yes so far so good!

I would like to end this post with a song some one sent me a month or so ago. If you read this, thank you. I play it every day.

Zero Lyrics

I felt like writing some new lyrics today, this one’s called:

              Change The World

every where I look, everyone’s fighting evil

the side your on, depends on your point of view

every where I look, everyone’s playing the victim

and it all comes back to that mentality of us vs them

 

everyday I wake up to another disaster

the sign of the times brings it to us much faster

everyday I wake up with hope for the future

but as the day goes on I become not so sure

 

everybody want’s to change the world, everybody wants to change the world

everyday in every way

sadly— everybody— is changing the world everyday in every way

 

ever wonder what would happen if we just gave in

and stopped worrying about when it will end

looked ahead and saw something good

and got together as we know we should

 

ever wonder what would happen if we stopped procrastinating

pretending, lying, and ego masturbating

what could be accomplished at the end of the day

if we said what we meant and mean what we say

 

everybody want’s to change the world, everybody wants to change the world

everyday in every way

sadly—- everybody—- is changing the world everyday in every way

 

everyone I meet say they know a better way to be

but I’m not sure their way is the best for me

everyone I see say they have it all figured out

but I’m not sure anyone knows what they talk about

 

everybody that I know say they want the best for us all

but then they all laugh when we fall

everybody rides the tilt-o-whirl

everybody want’s to change the world…

 

NOTE: The first verse and chorus was written in April, the second verse was written May 8th, and the third verse was written today.

 

New Lyrics

I wrote this the other day. A little corny, but that’s ok. It’s called:

GET TO KNOW ME

Chorus: You got to get to know me

   Before you dethrone me

  Come meet the family before you disown me

  Talking shit when you don’t even know me

  So get to know me, and then you can blow me

 

“Oh what’d he just say?

I wasn’t listening to him anyway”

Bitch you hang on every word that I say

Didn’t understand it? That’s OK

It wasn’t about you any way

See here’s the part you don’t seem to get

Nothing about you comes off to me as a threat

Best thing you could do is walk away and forget

In fact forget walking, run away better yet

REPEAT CHORUS

You got to get to know me homie

Before you try to stone me

Don’t come at me when you don’t even know me

Like I give a fuck if you don’t condone me

You are you, and that means you’re not me

Moral of the story

In your search for the glory

Watch what you say, if you don’t know the whole story

You’d think you know this, I’m sure you heard it before me

Song Dedication

song-dedication

This song goes out to all the bullies  out there. the real ones, not the ones seen behind every internet comment or post. Some people just need to grow the fuck up! Sorry for the language but some of you are just so thick-headed it is needed.

But for you real bullies out there, I don’t react to such tactics very well so do yourself a favor and stay out of my world,  because here, the bully get’s bullied.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=XtG7bwprF8k

(Linda, it’s an Eminem track so you should love it!)

Fake

http://youtu.be/PURM3BfEP74 In honor of the retiring Motley Crue I posted the link above to one of their songs that fits this post. I’m listening to it now as I type this. So where was I? Last week, I was watching a rebroadcast of a 20/20 report called “Faking It”.  I wasn’t paying a lot of attention, but as it went through a quick outline about what they would be discussing, the segment “Warrior Eli” caught my eye. It was about a woman who had made a fake Facebook account for a whole fictitious family. The fake families posts were tragic, from the posts about their son Eli who had spent his young life battling different types of cancer to the shocking and sudden death of the mother in a car accident. Many who befriended them on Facebook were devastated when they read about the accident, but that would change to confusion once the truth started to come out. The whole thing was made up, the family and their story created by a woman who I guess was bored with her own life.  I thought this and the other stories on “fakers” might make a good post for my blog, it’s the kind of thing most of my posts center around. So I turned it up and began to watch, ready to take notes. Then the first segment began and I sat there in a kind of awkward moment. Call it deja vu, serendipity, or some other mystic power of consciousness nod, but I knew this story, I had even blogged about it. It was about a Long Island man named  Raymond Roth who one Summer, went out into the ocean and vanished. As it turns out he and his son had faked Raymond’s death for insurance. And although the segment ends with Raymond being caught and awaiting his sentence, I knew there was much more to this story, because Raymond Roth was someone I had found out about while looking up information for my LISK Blog. I had been trying to find out information about Natasha Jugo, a girl who seemed to have just walked into the ocean near where LISK victims were found and disappear. Natasha’s body has since been found and opens up so many more questions to what is going on in Long Island. But back when I found an article on Raymond Roth faking his death, she was still missing, and finding an article about a local man doing exactly what was believed Natasha had done struck me odd. So I googled the name Raymond Roth and saw he had just recently made the news again. Here’s the first article I found: http://newyork.cbslocal.com/2013/03/21/l-i-man-accused-of-faking-his-own-death-due-in-court/ This article is from March 21st 2013, it says that Raymond was facing a little time and a healthy fine for his “Fake Death” and was due back in court May 21st. So what did Raymond decide to do while he awaited his sentencing? Lay low? maybe try to run back to Florida and hide again? Well according to this next article I found, Raymond went right out after that court appearance on 3-21-13 and tried to kidnap someone!?! chttp://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/03/28/raymond-roth-man-who-faked-drowning-arrested-impersonating-officer_n_2972845.html What struck me most when I found this article was that no one else had mentioned it yet. I mean at this time people were posting as screen names from utopia guide and others were commenting about a group of men called the CCC, why no mention of a local man who faked his own suicide off the beaches where these bodies were found and then was arrested for impersonating an officer and attempted kidnapping. Shouldn’t there have been some fake “Raymond” screen name or something popping up in the comments. Shouldn’t someone mention it at least. But no one did, I had found it on my own as I explained. When I bought the whole thing up in my blog, no one said much about it. Some one said that Raymond Roth was too disorganized to be involved in the LISK murders. I think that was the general idea, and no one seemed to think Raymond was worth me even bringing up. This confused me, people put their own ex husbands into this, a local guy who killed himself was thrown into it, someone who once was working with families was later turned on and placed into the suspect pool, many Oak Beach neighbors were brought into the gossiping comments, and bloggers and commenters were also called out in crazy lists of POIs. And yet this guy, this Raymond Roth was not even considered to be connected. Maybe he was part of the CCC or posted on Utopia Guide, or maybe he had been to one of Brewer’s parties, or played poker with the Doc. I mean I could not understand why no one went to him at all. But I wrote it off as just one of the crazy things in this case and its ripples into social media that didn’t make sense. And then last week while I was staying away from my laptop for a little while trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my LISK Blog, this  episode of 20/20 was on the screen in front of me with the story of a Long Island man who tried to fake his own death. Everything from the case and the blogs went rushing through my head. Why was this case so confusing, and why were so many alright with keeping it that way? I looked over at my new copy of “Lost Girls” and decided it was time I tried to understand the case better. Not the games, but the actual case. I knew a little about the case but most of that was about the night Shannan disappeared and all that came after. I picked up the book and read it. And that is where we will stop, at least here. This needs to continue back on the LISK blog: http://liskdotcom.wordpress.com/2014/02/09/lost-girls/ I know why I was first drawn to this case, I know why I first decided to blog about the things I read on LISK.com and Catching LISK, but there is something else that keeps me involved here. Something I can’t quite explain. For those interested in the 20/20 “Faking It” episode here is a link: http://abcnews.go.com/blogs/headlines/2013/01/faking-it-elaborate-fakes-secret-lives-and-big-fat-lies-on-2020/

My Favorite Comment

Zero, want to start off by sayin im sorry to hear about Motley Crue :(  i can relate and understand completely… This post really got to me, so i hope to be as clear as possible. As you know, im also a huge Eminem fan. The ‘story’ told in his lyrics had a tremendous impact on both myself and my son. So much we can relate to, on so many levels and issues…i know you understand. I too, have played the whole CD to death, as well as much of the older material written by ‘Shady’ lately…My son recently said he notices a change in me when i obsess over certain songs, an angry change. Although he understands where im coming from, he knows im in a better place when im listening to ‘Eminem’/Marshal..as his new stuff comes full circle, revealing he has matured and accepted certain painful things in his life..

i think i understand what you’re struggling with. We have had discussions off blog when we both struggle with our conscience..Its not easy for some of us to say, screw it, lets give em a taste of their own medicine!! even though sadly, it seems to work.

When i was new to all this, beginning on LISK, i was accused constantly of being too nice or phony, i was unaware and unprepared for the insults, let alone being accused of crimes ect..when i lashed out and defended myself, i then got accused of being too harsh or disruptive. i learned and observed however, there were many forms of distraction.  Ok, so some didnt curse or get their feathers ruffled, but i witnessed many arguments over who was smarter than who ect…post after post of arguing over the meaning of mental illness for example, just very nit picky, lots of attitude and strong personalities..I apologized many times on that site, but i actually regret that now, as ALL posting there had their moments and made mistakes..

the fact that is we all struggle with the angel/devil on our shoulders, well most do. I like you even more for admitting to this struggle. I know you are GOOD. I know your intentions were GOOD.  all we can do is learn and grow. i have NO regrets. Im proud to ‘know’ you, as well as quite a few others ive ‘met’. i hope you will not spend too much time struggling with yourself ZERO!! Just don’t.

Linda, thank you for your understanding. In the beginning I was one who found your comments on the harsh side, but I have come to appreciate your honestly so much, that if you were the only one reading my blogs I would continue to write them. As we all know, blogs are often misread and misunderstood, and it goes double for comments. It is so nice when someone gets what you are saying. And I can see that there are some of you out there that get what I am saying. I only wish I lived closer so that I could meet some of you personally. I’m sure we’d hit it off and we’d have plenty to talk about.

Thank you, Linda, this comment meant a lot to me. And now in the words of Motley Crue, it’s time to go “On With The Show”!

http://youtu.be/RBP_EUWZblU

And yes, I just may put Motley Crue in every post.

No Rhyme Or No Reason For Nothing

Don’t you love it when you are listening to a song and a line or two just really applies to what you are doing at that moment. It’s like complete serendipity. I was listening to Eminem’s new album: The Marshal Mathers LP 2 and the song Rhyme or Reason comes on and this line just made me smile:

You critics come pay to me a visit
Misery loves company, please stay a minute
Kryptonite to a hypocrite
Zip your lip if you dish it but can’t take it
Too busy getting stoned in your glass house
To kick rocks, and you wonder why I lash out

Man that says it all right there. Of course they seem to be dropping off. MM7 hasn’t commented or sent me an email since her last threat. Even big mouth Dorothy is quieter than usual. Newbie Nancy still trying to catch up, so there is a unsure trickling still coming from her, but for the most part they are all like SHHHH! (Or more like shhhhhit!) Sit back and enjoy the quiet for now or  listen to some Eminem with me:

http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x16pa3e_eminem-rhyme-or-reason-lyrics_music

Lyrics

So, I may have mentioned once or twice my love for music and lyrics. When I was younger I thought I would grow up to be a rock star. Nikki_Sixx  from Mötley Crüe was my idol. I was even in a couple garage bands back in the 80’s.

But I didn’t  have much talent other than writing lyrics and an ear for what would become popular. That might have been enough if I really did something with it. But I didn’t  and that is just life.

I never stopped writing lyrics though and I have so many of them that I just think the time has come to do something with them. So I am gonna post some here. And if there are any aspiring artist or accomplished one for that mater, who likes any of them, feel free to use them, all I ask is you mention the name zero on your album jacket if you use them in a song.  And with that I am going to write an original right now . It should be good because my head is raging with emotion lately. ( it might be crap too, I haven’t written a whole song in a while) Here it goes:

INSIDE

The worms crawl in, the worms crawl out.

Why does everybody have to scream and shout

Nonsense and hypocrisies

Blamings of you and me

Forever procrastinating

Deceitful and aggravating

Are we left to what is waiting

inside

or is it just another lie?

___________________

I read the news today, something ’bout the human race

Sherlock Holmes is on the case

But no one’s the wiser

When we disguise her

We just get higher

Glass house town crier

Another liar!

inside

it’s all

inside

we fall

inside

and what will become of us?

_______________________

I don’t want to sound disrespectful

But you have quite a mouthful

It’s time to spit it out

Eliminate all the doubt

Last american boy scout

And find out

What it’s all about

inside

we get

inside

the shit

inside

I get

inside

forget

inside

regret

inside

lust to dust

what’s become of us