Champs Élysées

 

I was walking down the avenue and my heart wanted something unknown(new)
I felt like saying good day to anybody
To anybody and that was you, and I said something (anything)
It was enough to me to talk to you to make you mine

At Champs Élysées, at Champs Élysées
If it’s raining or if sun is shining, if it’s noon or midnight
You have anything you want at Champs Élysées

You told me “I have a meeting in the basement with the madmen
who live with guitars in their hands from evening till morning”
So I joined you, we sang and we danced
But we never even thought of kissing or hugging.

At Champs Élysées, at Champs Élysées
If it’s raining or if sun is shining, if it’s noon or midnight
You have anything you want at Champs Élysées

 

As I wrote the 420 post the other day I was learning about the Paris shooting. That’s the world we live in today. Our good times and celebrations are constantly being hijacked by those who want to take away our individual freedoms.

The attack comes just days before the French presidential election.  That can’t be helpful. France has already been dealing with the tragedies caused by these freedom hijackers over the past few years making the election an important one and a confusing one. Something echoing throughout the world. People are scared, people are pissed, people are grieving. And they are searching for answers. Wanting to stop the madness, but not knowing how to do it.

I don’t have any answers. I just want to say how bad this sucks.

Until the other day if someone mentioned Champs Élysées, I would think of that NOFX cover. I would think of a place in Paris where 2 strangers might meet and fall in love while “madmen” played beautiful music on their guitars. Paris, the city of love, right? I have danced in the pit to this song more than once. When I play it there are great memories and just all over good feelings. It’s just one of those songs that makes me feel good about everything. I want to put my arms around those around me and dance and sing.

Fuck these other madmen who want to change that. I will not let them. At least I don’t want to let them.

I do not want dates and places to become sad memories of senseless tragedies.

But to be honest, if it continues this way, I don’t know if that is possible to stop.

Yes, no answers here,  I’m not even sure why I’m writing this post. It just sucks.

I want it to stop, I know it won’t.

When Will It Be Enough?

It’s been 2 months since my last post. I’ve been in a sort of stupor of sadness. After my last post another one of my heroes passed away. Prince was a major influence on my life since I was in grade school. I started to write a post about how he influenced my life and half way through I just stopped. I began to think about the blog and the things I was writing about. Started to once again wonder if I should have ever strayed from the “Red & Black” and onto the paths that led me to “Zero’s World”. I mean 2 of the biggest influences in my life, Bowie and Prince were gone, and I had failed to mention either one till after their untimely death. David Bowie and Prince were not just musical influences, they were huge influences on self-love and respect, individuality, and understanding and accepting… no… celebrating our differences. They were major parts of my very complicated life, and after 3 years of blogging I had not mentioned either until their death. What was I blogging about when Prince was takin’ from us? Some dick named Jason Edwards and the ongoing feuds of McKee, Prinnie, & Radio.

Had I lost my way?

What would the Zero of only a few years ago (the one who started his journey here at WordPress with the “Red & Black”) think, if he could see what he was blogging about now?

I’m the only one who can answer that, and yet I can’t. I’m not sure if I would have ever started blogging if I knew how it would affect me and the endless circles it would send me in. You see I’ve had issues with circles in the past, and my whole thought process when I wrote that first post, what seems like a lifetime ago, was to help others to see the circles we get stuck in and of course what I have said throughout all of this, understanding. If we try to understand each other and all we each are going through, the whys and hows, we could get to at least a common ground where moving forward instead of declining backwards was possible.

I know a lot of you are saying, “really you blogged about this stuff? I thought you just blogged about Dorothy and LISK obsessors.”

Well, maybe that’s my fault… I may have let the circles get the best of me. And yet, no matter how far I have strayed, circles never let you get far from where you begin.

So these last few months I have sat down to write a post quite a few times but unsure where to go with it for the moment. How to ride the circles. Because circles are not always bad things… like I have said before, they can be like rain drops on a pond… each circle growing bigger and bigger. Or think of the circles linked together in uncountable chains, each connecting to another as you trace them, leading you into all possibilities.

But they are dangerous, easy to get stuck in small circles that are very damaging. Or worse, they can break off into downward spirals.

Whoa… very “Red & Black” today. Sorry, I will try to get to the point, if there really is one any more, and I do still have hope that there is one. Maybe that’s the point. That I still have hope for one. I definitely think that’s what I thought was the point yesterday.

There were a few times I started to write a post over the past couple months. When I read the news about a man who had been with homeland security shot his estranged wife and many other innocent people in a 2 day shooting spree:

http://www.cnn.com/2016/05/06/us/maryland-shootings/index.html

I sat down to type, but nothing came. This guy was with Homeland Security!?! Once again there seems to be no lines between bad guys and good guys. Maybe that’s why I didn’t write a post.

There were other times I came to this screen wanting to put to words how I felt about all the things going on around me… when an Egypt Air  plane disappeared from the skies I once again sat at a blank screen wanting to say something but not really knowing the purpose of anything I could say. No matter what I said about it then, we’d still be at the same place now:

http://www.foxnews.com/world/2016/06/01/latest-french-firm-gets-signal-from-crashed-egypt-plane.html

Each time the argument about where people are allowed to use the restroom came up in the news and online I wanted to pound hard on my keyboard in all caps… but it wouldn’t have stopped the lunacy from growing as it did.

The thing about this blog is, the more I skip on planned posts and the more time I let pass between them… the easier it is not to blog at all.

For every thing I want to post about there are countless more things that I could be blogging about. Positive things, negative things, crazy things. The posts alone about this election would fill this already crowded blog. So again, what’s the point?
While posing the question to myself and getting stuck in a circle of sadness, I got some devastating news about someone very close to me.

Suddenly all the fucked upness of the world was hitting way too close.

It’s a good thing I wasn’t posting… because there would have been some dark stuff last week.

I really started to wonder if there was any hope for humanity. Are we stuck in circles or trapped in downward spirals so dangerous, there was no hope?

By the end of last week I still wasn’t sure where my head was on everything going on in the real world but I knew I wasn’t done in the Internet one. I had to write a post… about something… about anything, or it would just become to easy to let it go.

I thought long and hard this weekend, a good weekend spent with family and friends (my son had graduated from High School, that’s 6 down 1 to go) and thought hard about the world around me both close and distant. Yes, there was craziness and despair, but it was still beautiful to me. All of it had meaning… all of it had purpose, there was a point.

I decided to finally come back to the blog and post about a lot of what I just wrote, though more detailed in some areas (like more on Trump, Clinton, Bernie and the election) while not in others.

I planned the post in my head Saturday night as I went to sleep. I wasn’t sure whether I would call it “Summer Of Love” or “Summer Of Fear” but guessed it would be some sort of combination of both like “Summer Of Love Or Fear?” or “Summer Of?”. I had planned on using a couple of songs by Offspring:

 

I wanted to show the contrast, but I wanted to express the hope. I never know for sure how a post will go because things change as I write them, but I know I wanted to end positively and though it was a post about how fucked up things seem to be getting I wanted to express it was our Summer and if we wanted it to be a fun one regardless of all the shit we were going through, it could be. It was up to us to make this a Summer of Love and not a Summer of Fear.

Yesterday morning, I shook off all the doom and gloom and sat down to set it all back into a postive spin that could spin us into circles of hope. I also turned on the T.V.

The screen in front of me would remain blank once again.

The deadliest mass shooting in America’s history:

http://www.foxnews.com/us/2016/06/12/reaction-to-florida-nightclub-mass-shooting.html

http://www.cnn.com/2016/06/12/us/orlando-shooter-omar-mateen/index.html

Now what?

This is it. Maybe our final wake up call before it’s too late.

But that sounds a lot like fear.

It also sounds very real.

The choice of a summer of love vs. a summer of fear seems more important now than a silly post on a silly blog.

And I really don’t know which way it will go. I can’t even say what side I may find myself on.

This tragedy hits on so much, from gun control issues, mental illness and Islamic terrorism to the bigotry of all religions when it comes to the rights of the LGBTQ. But the fact remains that all these senseless things we do to each other is because we don’t care to understand each other.

I know there is still hope… most of the world wants to understand, accept, and live peacefully with each other. There is still love out there.

But is it time for us to seriously be afraid of  what may happen if we all don’t join together and fight against what is trying to destroy us…

or will that only insure our destruction?

The zero who first started blogging here on WordPress I’m sure would want us to fight the fear and embrace the love and hope for change.

That zero is gone though and I’m left more confused than ever and as I said, not sure where I will find myself.

 

Ain’t Nothing But Music

I found a link for the songs used to torture terrorist. Before you read it, who do you think is on it?

I already said Eminem was on the list… who else do you think made it?

Here’s a list of performers, take a guess at which ones were used to drive the prisoners to talk:

Britney Spears

Motley Crue

Marilyn Manson

Depeche Mode

Christina Aguilera

The Bee Gees

Hanson

 

I’ll give you a clue, 3 of the above were used.

How ’bout songs? Take a guess at which of these songs below were on the play list (again, 3 of them are mentioned in the article):

Afternoon Delight

We Are The Champions

The Barney Theme Song

The Thong Song

The Silver Spoons Theme Song

Never Gonna Give You Up

The Meow Mix Theme

 

Make you guesses than click on the link below to see if you’re right:

http://mic.com/articles/87851/11-popular-songs-the-cia-used-to-torture-prisoners-in-the-war-on-terror

The Bundy Saga

Bundy wiki

So that’s how Wikipedia describes the whole Bundy Standoff here in Nevada. Click here to read entire page.

I have been following the story and well, I just don’t get it. Why is this allowed to go on for so long? I mean, if someone got their car confiscated by police because they had drugs on them when pulled over, they wouldn’t go gather up a bunch of drug dealers and storm the impound with guns to get their vehicle back. You could bet if they did they’d all be dead or in jail.

But I guess that’s all in what you see as criminal, and there are those who don’t see Bundy’s action as criminal, in fact they see the government at the criminals here (hey who doesn’t see the government as criminals these days).  In fact many were willing to help the Bundy cause and saddled up to play cowboy.

You know like back in the days of Billy the Kid and Jesse James when the lines were so blurred it was impossible to tell the good guys from the bad guys. Just think of it as the internet with guns and cowboy hats.

Like this guy:

RICHARD-MACK

Richard Mack (where’s his cowboy hat?) a retired Arizona sheriff, who had this to say on Fox News: “We were actually strategizing to put all the women up at the front. If [the feds] are going to start shooting, it’s going to be women that are going to be televised all across the world getting shot by these rogue federal officers.”

CLICK HERE to see the video.

Damn, now that’s a “Dick Move”, but hey, all insinuated in the name, right?

Good thing LE caved I guess… but I thought we didn’t negotiate with terrorist? Again all in perception, right?

Like the racist comments made by Bundy:

Bundy negro

Ok, first off, Bundy needs to be added to the #2014Fuckyoutour… and anyone who still supports this asshole as well. The whole statement is ridicules. Some of the dumb highlights are explaining that abortion is the result of government subsidy, I mean that’s dumber than most racist, who could tell you government subsidies cause them to keep having babies and ripping off the taxpayer. Also the statement “They put their young men in jail”… I don’t even have to explain how dumb that sentence is, right?  But the whole notion that it all could have been avoided if “they” just learned to pick cotton, it’s almost too outrageous to even get you head around.

Yea, perception or not, these assholes playing cowboys are just that, assholes playing cowboys. And now it will probably drag back on in the courts…  see no cowboys, just assholes. It’s probably a good thing for these assholes that the rest of the world ain’t playing cowboy… I’ll leave it at that.

CLICK HERE if you can’t see video.